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[deto]

Who 》 Deto, Nanashi/Nanase
What 》 overflows
When 》 all of october & november
Where 》 Mac Anu & various locations
Content Warnings 》 boys, nsfw


》 Deto & Nanashi: First Meeting | Cont. from thread
》 Deto & Nanashi: Re:Mind | Cont. from thread (NSFW)
》 Deto & Nanashi: Meat Cute | Cont. from thread (NSFW)
》 Deto & Nanase: Lost & Found | Cont. from thread (oops also NSFW)

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Deto & Nanashi

[deto]

[ the sound of footsteps approaching and then an amused huff when deto sees nanashi waiting with his eyes closed. the flick comes as expected. the surprise is probably how light it is, there and then gone. ]

Nacchin.

[ deto stands before him in his default skin: a school gakuran with some light armor here and there. his avatar's basically a one-to-one copy of his real self, just your average high schooler. supposedly good-looking to some, but the only feature notable is the three prominent moles on his face: two by his right eye, one right above his left jawline. there's only the very, very faintest trace of pink from earlier. ]

Hey.

[justonezero]

Ack!

[It's a reflexive sound, given he heard Deto coming. Red eyes flutter open, and you'd be forgiven for thinking between that, the white hair, and the star-shaped mole under his eye, this is a completely fabricated look. But nope, his avatar pretty much looks like his real life self too, albeit in the white bunny robes.]

Oh- hi!

[deto]

Hmm.

[ he studies nanashi, not hiding the fact that he’s looking the other boy up and down. ]

Honestly? Not what I was expecting.

[justonezero]

[He doesn't mind it! He's used to people staring because of his looks.]

What were you expecting?

[deto]

A soft guy, but not like this. Not fuzzy and… pink around the edges.

[ which… probably makes no sense as nanashi’s hair is white and his eyes are red, not pink ]

[justonezero]

Pink's a good color!

[deto]

Not my thing. But for you?

[ he considers nanashi one more time and then nods ]

Yeah, for you it works. It’s cute.

Deto & Nanashi Round 2

[deto]

[ he scrambles out of bed, swift as if urged by a natural disaster. well, this is something worse, in his opinion, a magnitude 9 earthquake that has him frantic to reach nanashi’s door, to touch him and make sure - make sure…

…

and once he’s there: ]

Yoshi, let me in.

[ please is desperately inserted in his name ]

[justonezero]

[It takes a bit. But eventually, he opens up the door, peeking out.

It's obvious he's been crying, from the wetness on his face, the redness to his eyes from irritation rather than just natural color. And yet, thin as it is and not at all convincing...

He smiles.

Close as Deto's been to him recently, he might be able to tell the way it comes to him almost like a reflex. An insistence that he's cheerful, he's fine, he isn't hurt at all.

Because even if the world hates him, at least he can still smile.

Because even if he hates himself, at least he can still be happy.

Right?]

Um... hey. S-sorry, I'm... pretty uncool right now.

[He's already reaching up, trying to scrub the tears from his face with his sleeves.]

[deto]

[ he reaches out to intercept, brushing remnants of tears away with a rough-gentle school-boy thumb

then uses that motion to step past the door into the room. the door is kicked shut behind him as his arm comes around nanashi’s head, cupping the back of it protectively, pulling it into the space of his collarbone. his other hand reaches for his. where it ends, on his chest next to his solemn heartbeat or up against his mouth where lips brush against each lonely knuckle - that’s up to what nanashi let’s him do ]

No one’s looking now. Not even me.

[ so he doesn’t have to smile for anyone ]

Not if you don’t want anyone to see.

[justonezero]

[It's a welcome reprieve, and he allows all of it, burying his face to hide the tears, only barely cognizant of the lips brushing across the back of his hand. With his own free hand, he clings to Akira like he's holding onto a lifeline, afraid his hand will slip and he'll be sent tumbling into an abyss.]

It- it's weird. It doesn't usually hurt, so why...?

[Why does it feel like his heart is breaking...?

Is this what Akira meant, when he said his heart was already bleeding...?]

[deto]

[ “maybe you’ve been bleeding for so long that you’re just used to it now.” his words, rough for him to remember now ]

… I don’t think it ever stopped. You’ve only just remembered how to listen for it.

[justonezero]

...I don't like it.

[How does he stop it? How does he turn it off?

His breaths are beginning to calm at least, though he isn't raising his head again, not yet.]

...Making me forget... that must have been his "gift."

To show me "true happiness." ...That way I wouldn't want to leave. Did he take it away again...? Or did the gift have limits...?

Deto & Nanashi Round 3

[deto]

Yeah, but I think the part of you that pushes for what you want would have been the same.

[ he urges yoshi deeper in as he says this, so that they’re out of sight of everyone else. deto doesn’t care if they know, he just doesn’t want them to see. he doesn’t want to share what expression yoshi makes when he’s anticipating a proper kiss - or what expression he makes after ]

… Just one?

[justonezero]

[Following into the cabana easily enough! This is why they're obvious to every single other player in this game.]

Might not have had the courage...

[Missing such specific memories, it sure felt a lot easier to be brave. Though at this point, it's all pretty faded and he's still the usual disaster.]

...It doesn't have to be just one.

[deto]

I dunno, I’d bet on you having it.

[ could be deto’s wishful thinking, hoping yoshi would take a chance on him even if his memories hadn’t been tampered with

he crowds the other boy against a wall ]

I can’t listen to you. You’ll tempt me into tiring you out even more and you already need a week’s worth of rest at least.

[justonezero]

[He doesn't seem to mind, backing up against that wall with a smile.]

If it's you, I think I can find a little extra energy.

[deto]

Dummy, I have to cherish you.

[ hands find his waist as deto leans in, knowing yoshi will meet him in the middle ]

There’s only one you.

[justonezero]

[He's right - Nanashi's hands seek out his shoulders as he leans in, too.]

I'm not that fragile, you know.

[He can feel Akira's body through the fabric of the gakuran... solid and warm and alive.

He's exhausted, yes, but he'd happily stay up all night reaffirming that the boy in front of him is here, alive and safe.

He tilts his head, pressing in for a kiss as his hands move to loop comfortably around Akira's shoulders.]

Deto & Nanase Round 4

[deto]

[ the first apology to fuurin already upsets deto, but the second one… that’s it. wherever yoshi is in their room, he’s getting scooped up and carried to the bed for some cuddle jail, maximum sentence. forum rights are gone for the rest of the night ]

Yoshi… The pace you’re going at is fine.

[justonezero]

[It's probably for the best, although he's startled as he's scooped up.]

-?!

...Are you sure?

[It doesn't really sound like it...]

[deto]

Mm. I didn’t want to say this in a public forum, but maybe it’s something you need to hear - after that. [ his tone is careful, the words slow ] If it were that easy for everyone to consider a life precious, let alone their own life… it would be easier to save a life. And… if it were that easy to save a life, if things could be sped up just because someone online said to do better, then Hien would still be alive.

It’s not easy. I know how much you struggle. I see it. I’m real proud of how much you’ve managed already.

[justonezero]

[He winces a little - it's especially painful, hearing Hien's name in this context.]

...I wonder if I'll ever improve enough?

...It doesn't feel like it.

[He's too slow. Too annoying.

It's the first time in a while since a relationship exploded so suddenly on him, and that just makes it all the sharper.]

[deto]

For who? And what’s enough? You’ve always been enough to me. Here, look.

[ deto shares a screenshot of oriade’s first message, still keeping yoshi locked in his arms ]

I’m not the only one who sees how hard you’ve worked to change. I’m not the only one to see the progress you’ve made. This guy was so shocked, I think, by how fast it happened.

[justonezero]

[For what it's worth he doesn't seem interested in moving anywhere - he's upset, but that self-hatred is no longer enough to keep him from leaning against Akira, seeking warmth and contact and comfort.]

Oriade... is that because of what I said when it looked like he killed you?

[It's the only time he can think of that would warrant such a response.]

...I want to stop upsetting people just by being myself. But... I really don't see anything special about the things I've done here, either. Learning to wrap bandages or stuff.