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[deto]

Who 》 Deto, Nanashi/Nanase
What 》 overflows
When 》 all of october & november
Where 》 Mac Anu & various locations
Content Warnings 》 boys, nsfw


》 Deto & Nanashi: First Meeting | Cont. from thread
》 Deto & Nanashi: Re:Mind | Cont. from thread (NSFW)
》 Deto & Nanashi: Meat Cute | Cont. from thread (NSFW)
》 Deto & Nanase: Lost & Found | Cont. from thread (oops also NSFW)

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[deto]

And as long as we’re together… [ as long as they’re both alive ] … our pace will be just right - for us.

[justonezero]

[After a moment, he nods.]

...Yeah.

I hope - we'll have plenty of time to grow together.

[deto]

We will.

[ deto won’t lose himself - and absolutely refuses to lose yoshi and all the possibilities their future holds ]

Do you feel a little better about today?

[justonezero]

...Mm. But it's hard not to feel better just being with you.

[deto]

I’m not going anywhere.

[justonezero]

If you banned me from the forum and left me here, that'd be extra cruel.

[deto]

Like that’s possible. That’s like punishing the both of us. I’d go insane.

[justonezero]

Please don't! If you lose it, there's no way I'll be able to stay grounded.

[deto]

[ a half-smile, half-grimace at that. it’s true for both of them ]

What’s this? You hold my marbles and I hold yours? What a pair we make.

[justonezero]

I already almost lost it when I thought you died, so...

[deto]

[ oh - he brings his face close, a worried line between his brows ]

I’m sorry.

[justonezero]

[All he can offer is a strained smile. Just remembering it leaves a bad taste in his mouth.]

...You didn't really die, so it's okay. And... it wasn't your fault, either.

[deto]

Every terrible thing you felt in that moment was real though. I wasn’t taking the fight seriously enough.

[ until then, he probably hadn’t come to terms with the reality of - well, all of this ]

I’ll protect myself better for you.

[justonezero]

[His head dips down in hesitation. It takes him a moment to come up with a proper response.]

...Thank you. I... don't know what I'd do if you were gone.

If... I had to keep living in a world without you in it.

[deto]

[ immediately: ]

Impossible. I couldn’t - not without you.

[ his mind is blank when he tries to imagine life without yoshi. it’s terrifying, not possible. empty

he hugs yoshi tightly and flops them onto their sides. the way he curls around him is protective, a bit panicked. this precious person right here is his everything ]

[justonezero]

[He allows himself to fall along with Akira's movements, pressing up close against him, warding off the phantom form of those what-ifs with that proximity, that warmth, that touch.]

I'll... be careful, too. But...

I think I'm probably being targeted.

[Macha certainly did, as did Skeith.]

[deto]

[ … what…? ]

Why?

[justonezero]

Because I'm a healer, I guess? ...Both Macha and Skeith were pretty brutal.

[deto]

I dunno… Thinking back, you definitely were targeted a lot more than the other healers, too.

[justonezero]

Was I?

[Hard to tell when he's busy digging himself out of whatever new crisis.]

[deto]

[ could just be deto vision which focuses mostly on yoshi - and he knows that, so he can’t even say for sure ]

Did you ever talk to Mithrun1 about it after?

[justonezero]

Not really... I mean, he apologized to me after the fight, but it was Macha who targeted me.

We talked about other things instead.

[deto]

It was still him. I don’t really see much of a difference between the two.

[justonezero]

I can't speak for all of them, but... The Waves were pretty different. Gorre said all kinds of cruel things, and Tarvos was trying to make me angry...

But Winter and Misteaks are both much kinder than that.

[deto]

They’re kind, sure, but their insecurities were always there. Drawn out, twisted. Otherwise, what hold would the corruption have on them?

[ he imagines a cult would be similar ]

It wasn’t different people who attacked us. It was still them, making those choices. Even if they had less and less control as time went by.

I think… that was the point.