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yael ([personal profile] weaseled) wrote in [community profile] altimit2023-08-01 09:45 am

milky's bullshit containment zone

Who ⚔ Yael & assorted nerds
What ⚔ A dungeon run and other things
When ⚔ After the party
Where ⚔ Errywhere
Content Warnings ⚔ Men with their tits out? Alcohol??? No correlation there surprisingly. nsfw i'm sorry mom

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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-15 01:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ All he can do is laugh. If Yael wanted to slut shame him now, he'd be fine with that, but he knows that isn't the case here. If anything, it's a compliment. ]

So? Can't handle a little pain?

[ But Fai eases up, shifting his weight back onto his knee and Yael's stomach as he leans down enough so he can pull Yael's chin upward and access his neck. ]

While we have to be fully transparent here, why don't you tell me what you're thinking right now? How do you feel?
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-15 02:15 am (UTC)(link)
I don't need to do anything.

[ He has the reins now and he doesn't plan on getting to the main event just yet. And so he bites on Yael's neck hard, just as hard as Yael had bitten him earlier, and sucks on his skin to leave a dark, mottled bruise. What a shame that the bruise will disappear the moment he logs out instead of lingering for days after.

Maybe he'll need to invite Yael over once they're done here. The thought itself brings to life butterflies in his stomach, and another question escapes him before he can hold it back. ]


How do you feel about me?

[ ...

He didn't mean to ask that, but here he is. ]
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-15 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ He was expecting something cheesy, maybe something akin to Yael feeling like he's in high school again with a massive crush or like a schoolyard bully that doesn't know what to do when faced with the one they like. But this?

Fai wasn't expecting this. He was well aware that Yael likes him and he wanted to hear that, but it's so much more. That's why he gasps softly at those words, his entire body stilling where he's still draped over Yael.

He's frozen, so shocked that he's unable to move. ]


Sheza, I...
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-15 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ Fai hisses when Yael knocks their heads together, his own head practically spinning until he's suddenly back on the ground, grass tickling at the back of his neck as he realizes that Yael has reversed their positions once again.

His breath quickens as Yael all but rips at his robes, pulling and tugging them until they finally get off of Fai's body in a twisted heap and he's left bare and exposed. Yael's mouth is hot and familiar against his skin as he bites and sucks at the sensitive flesh until it's peppered with bruises that will disappear in short order. But it's pain tinged with pleasure now instead of the other way around, his fingernails digging into the armor at Yael's back.

It's easy for him to oblige with Yael's order as he spreads his legs, fully exposing himself to Yael much like he had bared his heart to Fai only moments ago. ]


...You're imposing your own feelings on me. What did you think I was looking for, Sheza?
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-15 03:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ It hurts, an all too familiar ache spreading him wide open as Yael buries himself quickly into Fai. His back arches, his hands pulling and tugging at Yael's shirt in a bid as if daring him not to stop.

Keep going.

With a shiver, he reaches a hand up to tug harshly on Yael's hair, gathering up those strands in his long fingers so that he has a better, fuller grip. If Yael is going to hurt him, draw heavy breaths and barely concealed whines out of him, then Fai will do the same. All Yael can do is dole out pain, but Fai can soak it up and let it fill him to the brim before releasing it back out. ]


Shut up? [ Using that grip he has on Yael's hair, he tugs. ] You really expect me to fall in line and do whatever you say?
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-16 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[ That's what Yael loves about him, isn't it? His heart twists in his chest, his stomach feels like it's flipped onto its side, and the rocks and dirt scraping against his back are merely peripheral to the other pain he feels. ]

Sheza, I...

[ He squeezes his thighs around Yael's hips, pushing him closer in a silent bid for Yael to give him more, to expel all of the negative feelings he has right now into Fai. He'll simply soak all of them up and hold onto them like a sponge because there's nothing else he can offer. Comforting words aren't an option, not when he's sure that Yael doesn't want to hear them in the first place. ]
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-17 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ Wouldn't that be better? To lie here and take it and let Yael get out all of his negative feelings? There's still a big part of Fai that thinks he should, but his very nature keeps himself from doing it too much. ]

I think...

[ He groans, grimacing in pain as those thrusts start to toe the line of being too much. It's a pain that rends him in two, yet still causes heat to pool low in his gut nevertheless. ]

I think you're the one for me.

[ While Fai's feelings might not be quite there yet, he can at least make that logical conclusion. He's in touch with his own feelings enough to be able to do so, and Yael should know that this, at least, is his truth. ]
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-17 05:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ A hand settles on Yael's shoulder, his fingernails digging into his skin. Pain in return for the way the rocks underneath him dig into his back and cut into his skin. ]

You... want me to call you a monster. [ He pants, doing what he can to catch his breath despite the relentless pace Yael has settled on. ] Why would I say something I don't mean?

[ Ironic, for someone who always says what he doesn't mean, right? And yet he's been mostly honest with Yael the entire time they've known one another, at first because he knew he couldn't get away with it and later on because he grew comfortable. ]
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-17 09:19 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Yael has warned Fai plenty of times himself, hasn't he? But Fai ignores every little warning, simply because he doesn't care. He doesn't regret this, and he knows he never will. What he had said to Yael was the truth, after all.

Fai knows that Yael is the one, in his head and in a burgeoning feeling in his heart. Yet he can't tell Yael he loves him back, not until he feels it fully. It isn't fair to say it, not when the seed is still taking root in his heart. Even if he wasn't burdened with only speaking the truth, he would not have said it.

It's because he cares so deeply, though, that Yael's words cut deep, enough that Fai worries at his bottom lip, suppressing any of the groans that might otherwise escape him. ]


I know. [ He can't hold back what he says next, unfortunately: ] But I deserve it, don't I?
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-20 12:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ Why does Yael keep going? It's clear that neither of them are enjoying this, that each heavy thrust of Yael's hips only brings them both more pain. Yet, Fai wants to keep Yael inside of him, to keep him close so that he might understand what it is that Fai feels. With a small shift, he wraps one of his legs more firmly around Yael's hips. ]

I already decided that you can take what you want from me. I made that decision a while ago.

[ He snakes a hand up and under Yael's shirt, digging his nails into Yael's shoulder before dragging them down his back. It'll create long, thin scratches here, but they won't last long. Nothing in this game does. Yael can consider this pain in exchange for what Yael is doing now.

When will he understand that Fai deserves everything that Yael can give him? ]


What... would you want me to do? Flip the both of us over?
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-20 04:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He feels cold when Yael pulls away, for more than one reason. Suppressing a shiver, Fai sits up, his hands shaking enough that he presses them down onto the grass in an attempt to stop the tremors.

It doesn’t work. ]


I…

[ His eyes feel hot, tears prickling behind them for the first time in a long, long time. ]

I can’t lose you, Sheza.

[ But maybe he’s too broken, even for the one who said he’d be able to carry all of Fai’s baggage. ]
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[personal profile] fluorite 2023-09-20 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[ And here Fai is, undeserving of this comfort, yet he's taking it anyway. Wrapping his arms tightly around Yael, he buries his face in his shoulder and breathes out, long and slow as they drift into silence. All he needs is this right now, even as his heart hammers against his chest and tears finally spill onto his cheeks, wetting the fabric of Yael's armor. It's been so long since he's cried that it almost stings, almost makes his body break out into full tremors, but he manages to keep it under control.

He can lose it when he logs out.

After all, he needs to take care of Yael first, doesn't he? Pulling out of the hug, Fai takes Yael's face between both of his hands so he can't look away. ]


I won't leave you. I didn't say it to comfort you, Sheza. You're the one. I know it, and it scares me.

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