milky's bullshit containment zone

[weaseled]

Who ⚔ Yael & assorted nerds
What ⚔ A dungeon run and other things
When ⚔ After the party
Where ⚔ Errywhere
Content Warnings ⚔ Men with their tits out? Alcohol??? No correlation there surprisingly. nsfw i'm sorry mom

Comments

[weaseled]

It's fine. Everyone goes through rough patches.

[And he'd rather dismiss the entire thing as exactly that: a rough patch rather than a love that burned for the better part of his life before being snuffed out without a lick of warning.]

But that was then and this is now. I've moved on and moved forward.

[fluorite]

[ He shifts so that he's not tucked right up against Yael's side so that he can give him a little shove. ]

Don't be so dismissive of an important relationship like that. It's not fair to you or her.

[weaseled]

[Fai truly picks the worst hills to die on... In response to that shove, Yael sticks his tongue out at Fai. Pffpt.]

Give me a break here, will you? You know it was important to me. That doesn't change the fact that hanging onto the past isn't going to do anything for me.

[fluorite]

[ Well, he's right about that much at least, even if Fai is a big hypocrite and refuses to acknowledge that for himself.

...He wants to pinch that tongue as punishment. While he considers scolding Yael again, he puts that instinct on pause long enough to ask something else. ]

How long ago did you break up?

[weaseled]

[Fai can scold him all he wants later. Yael is an expert at shutting off his brain and ignoring nags, but he exhales a small sigh of relief when Fai doesn't immediately go for the throat.]

Three years ago. Long enough to move on, don't you agree?

[fluorite]

...I think so.

[ That's quite a long time, honestly, especially in this day and age, where people are immediately on dating websites minutes after ending a long relationship. ]

It took the full three years, didn't it? You didn't kiss anyone else until me.

[ That nervousness on Yael's part was unmistakable. ]

[weaseled]

[He doesn't ask to be called out like this, but Fai is correct. Yael remains quiet for a time before exhaling a sigh, long and thin.]

No. I wasn't ready to.

[fluorite]

There's nothing wrong with that, for the record.

[ But he feels like he got the answer he wanted, so he doesn't rub it in at least. ]

What changed?

[ Fai isn't so sure that he, specifically, had anything to do with it, but... he's just curious. ]

[weaseled]

You really have to ask? Tsk.

[Fai had everything to do with it. Yael turns, pointedly looking Fai up and down.]

The timing felt right. I followed my gut.

[fluorite]

[ That pointed look has Fai looking away, his gaze fixed on some rock twelve feet away from them. ]

As long as you don't regret following your gut, I'm glad that I was part of helping you move on.

[ He may be stupid. ]

[weaseled]

[Mm, yes, stupid is right. Some part of Fai's answer doesn't settle right with Yael, so he lifts a hand to flick Fai dead center on the forehead.]

[fluorite]

Ow! That really hurts!

[ He rubs his forehead, staring at Yael with his lips downturned in what can only be described as just shy of a pout. ]

[weaseled]

Heh. Poor thing...

[Said with no small amount of sarcasm, Yael leans back on his palms and grins.]

You really are like some princess in a fairy tale, sitting around and waiting for some dashing knight to whisk you away. Maybe some day your knight will come.

[fluorite]

Is that a bad thing...? Sometimes I really do wish someone would take me away and out of the life I have now.

[ He resists the urge to pull his knees up to his chest, but just barely. ]

Less so now that I used to, at least.

[weaseled]

Nah. That's part of your charm.

[Nailed it in one, huh? Yael laughs, standing up to pull Fai into a princess carry.]

I could carry you like this just as easily in real life. You want that?

[fluorite]

[ Oh! He's not expecting to be picked up, but he rolls with it anyway, leaning his head against Yael's shoulder. ]

Who wouldn't?

[ A lot of people. But not Fai. ]

Is this your way of offering to be my knight?

[ Ha ha just a jokey joke. ]

[weaseled]

[Ha ha, what a funny joke. So funny he forgot to laugh... or perhaps it's just because he has his mouth full, leaning in to kiss Fai deep then deeper, intertwining their tongues and stealing the breath from his lungs. When he pulls away, there's an unmistakable weight behind Yael's words.]

Keep talking like that and you'll make me take you seriously.

[fluorite]

[ It's a kiss so warm that Fai has his fingers entangled in Yael's hair before he even realizes it, only fully becoming aware of that fact when they pull apart. ]

Would you really?

[ The weight behind those words is unmistakable, and yet it's present in Fai's too. ]

[weaseled]

I would.

[No sense in hiding how he feels and who he is. Fai knows better by now anyhow.]

"As long as you don't regret following your gut," was it? That's what I can't stand. Don't act like you're some sort of cursed bastard who's going to drag me down to hell if I get serious with you.

[fluorite]

[ He laughs, but it's self-deprecating. His heart is beating a mile a minute, his hands shaking slightly as he folds them in his lap in the hopes Yael won't notice. ]

But what if I am?

[weaseled]

Full of shit is what you are.

[So he says, but his tone isn't as chiding as his words. Settling back against the ruined walls, Yael keeps Fai balanced in his hold, half settled in his lap. He notices those hands shaking in his lap. How could he not?]

Relax. I know you're scared.

[fluorite]

[ He sighs, leaning against Yael in an attempt to relax, even thought his shoulders are tense. ]

My last relationship wasn't great. And I've never started one like this before, so...

[ A lot of people dabble in online dating, sure, but this is a whole other level. ]

[weaseled]

[He squeezes Fai's shoulders, pulling him a little more tightly against his frame. Starting a relationship... Yael would hesitate to say they have, but they have, haven't they? He draws in a long, steadying breath of his own.]

Tell me about it. Might as well make it a fair trade.

[fluorite]

[ He lets out a sigh, momentarily closing his eyes. ]

He said he couldn't deal with all of my problems, that he needed someone who didn't have a lot of baggage.

[ There's more—after all, there is always more—but that's the gist of it anyway. ]

[weaseled]

Is that so? Fair enough.

[But he doesn't want Fai to hear that and misunderstand, so Yael raises a hand to idly comb through his hair, continuing his thought.]

But everyone's got baggage. Everyone's got issues. It's for the better that he figured out he couldn't handle yours, but he's going to run into the same problem until he grows up a little.

Regardless... sorry.

[Breakups are never easy, never pleasant.]