Who ⚔ Yael & assorted nerds What ⚔ A dungeon run and other things When ⚔ After the party Where ⚔ Errywhere Content Warnings ⚔ Men with their tits out? Alcohol??? No correlation there surprisingly. nsfw i'm sorry mom
[Unfortunately, Yael isn't picking up on that nervousness. He's in too deep, drunk on the taste of Yuui's skin beneath his tongue. They're a perfect, fit, Yael thinks, and for once he isn't afraid to indulge that thought.
Tracking kisses up and down the pale column of his neck, Yael presses his arousal to Yuui's ass, those vibrations running like a current beneath his skin. His cock twitches heavily, almost desperately, because it's been far too long since they've been intimate.
It's about damn time. Yuui thinks so too, right? Slowly, Yael's fingers begin working that plug loose.]
[ Yael's lips feel as good against his skin as they always have, so it's easy enough for Fai to allow himself to get lost in that particular feeling, the vibrator playing second fiddle to the heat of his tongue. This is easy and pleasurable, showing in the way that he keeps his hand on the back of Yael's head so that he's forced to stay right at his neck, right where Fai likes it.
But Yael's cock twitches against him and that nervousness comes rushing back and he heaves out a breath, nowhere near as blissful as those sighs. ]
You're eager.
[ He can tell, and it makes him feel guilty for not feeling that same burn of need. Ah, but maybe he can will it up inside of him, maybe he just needs Yael's cock pressing against his entrance and that will solve all of his problems. ]
[There's his first hint, that whoosh of an exhale. It eludes his conscious notice — nothing to worry about, surely — as he tosses the toy aside and lines up, the tip of his cock slowly burying itself into Yuui's body.]
...Aren't you? This is the only sport we have in common.
[ His brows furrow as Yael's cock presses into him, his breath quickening in all the wrong ways as his fingers dig into Yael's biceps. There's no groan, no sigh, no utterance of "finally". ]
Please... it's not a sport.
[ Though his body is acting like it's one, his heart hammering in his chest in a very bad way. Ah, but maybe he can get through it just for Yael. It's been a while, and his desire is practically radiating off of him in a way that Fai would normally drink right up.
But does he even want Fai like this, knowing that Fai doesn't love him back? The last time Yael topped, it certainly didn't seem that way.
[An odd feeling stirs in his cut. A chill runs up his spine. No need to tell him something's off: he can feel it.]
...No? Genital jousting doesn't qualify for the Olympics, but it still takes skill and finesse.
[It's clear to Yael that something is off. He isn't going to let the thought slip his mind, instead operating on a hunch and pulling down on Yuui's hips to quickly bury himself fully inside of his body.
Pressed this close, he can feel his heart hammering away. He can feel the cold sweat beading on his skin, and with it, a familiar sense of dread comes to roost. In his heart, he already knows.]
[ He gasps, trembling in a way that isn't pleasurable at all, even as his legs squeeze around Yael's middle. ]
I...
[ He can't do this, can he? Not when Yael's cock inside of him fills him with anxiety, activating his nerves in a way that makes him want to bury himself in a hole. His eyes feel painfully wet, and the urge to cover his face is strong. ]
I can't do this. I'm sorry.
[ Fai practically whispers, shame plainly written all over his face. ]
[Yael knew something wasn't right, but having the truth confirmed for him hits him harder and faster than he ever could have imagined.
Nausea climbs into his throat and claws at his gut. I can't do this. Yael feels the blood drain from his face and his legs threaten to give out, but he doesn't allow himself to buckle. He doesn't let emotion permeate his expression. He can't, won't, when Yuui is the one hurting.
Yael slowly withdraws, pulling out while his cock rapidly softens, and sets Yuui down.]
Don't be. I get it.
[He knows why, after all. This is his own damn fault.]
[He should've been prepared for this, but it stings. Badly. The best Yael can do is keep himself together for Yuui's sake and remain right where he is, thinking better of pulling away and giving Yuui some space. Right now, he might take that as a sign that Yael only wants him for sex— that that's all he's good for.
Yael won't let that happen. Seeing the muscles in his legs tense and tremble, Yael exhales a silent sigh and loops an arm around his shoulders, bringing him in for a hug, loose but warm.]
You've got this bad habit of apologizing over nothing. As if you were the one who screwed up.
[Yael softly clicks his tongue.]
...After what I did to you, of course you're uncomfortable. You should've said something sooner.
You thought you would enjoy being taken against your will? Give me a break.
[This bonehead has never been treated well in his life. That's the only reason he can say what he's saying without any irony, without cracking up and admitting that he's just pulling his own leg, that he isn't so ill in the head that he'd truly believe any part of what was done to him was welcomed and wanted. For such a smart guy, Yuui sure is a capital D dumbass.
Yael brings them both down to sit, hauling Yuui into his lap.]
Your body is trying to tell you something. You ought to listen to it for once.
[Case in point: Yael tweaks Yuui's shoulder. Yael has spent countless nights massaging his neck, back, and shoulders because Yuui spends so much time nose down in his text books. This man knows how to moisturize, but that's only so he looks good to others. He doesn't do a damn thing to take care of himself.]
[ He hisses, his muscles twinging painfully. Yael certainly spends a lot of time trying to work knots out of Fai's muscles, but they always reappear with the sheer amount of stress he feels on a daily basis. ]
Ah... Rude.
[ But if Yael decides to give him a massage, he won't decline it... ]
I think I need more time. I'll listen to my body, since you insist.
[It hurts to know Yuui can't trust him right now, that he'll need time to regain that trust, but Yael is at least assured that he'll put his own needs front and center for once.
That said...]
Well, want me to leave you alone? Go ahead, tell me to back off. I won't be offended.
[ He knows his answer immediately—no way in hell does he want Yael to back off. It didn't work last time, and it certainly won't work now. What Fai needs is for him to remain close, for him to know that they're secure.
Ah, but saying that feels like he's laying his heart too bare. ]
...I'd hoped that you would offer to give me a massage.
[ He thinks that this will at least give Yael a semblance of an answer. ]
[A massage. He isn't going to say no to that, but a non-insignificant part of Yael worries that putting his hands on Yuui when he's bare and exposed is going to trigger a similarly poor reaction from him.
Regardless, Yael isn't going to turn his request down. He acquiesces with a nod.]
Alright, alright. Here's my offer: want a massage?
[He'd offer to take this back to Fine Wine's @ Home so Yuui can lay down while he receives his massage, but that might be toeing too fine a line. Instead, Yael doesn't miss a beat when Yuui turns and offers him his back, digging his thumbs into his shoulders to begin loosening up any knots he comes across.]
Don't thank me. You didn't want me to leave, so I stayed.
[That's all. But that isn't all, is it? Yael has left plenty of times before regardless of what Yuui wants, but the last thing he wants is to hear Yuui muse about how he's shaped up, improved, what have you. Please, don't embarrass him like that.]
[ He breathes out, a heavy puff when Yael immediately digs into a knot. Being trapped in-game has unsurprisingly left him incredibly tense, plenty of knots available in his shoulders for Yael to work out. ]
You've left plenty of times, you know.
[ Which means Yael is getting the last thing he wants to hear. At least Fai has enough mercy to leave it at that. ]
[Not surprising that Yuui is stiffer than a frozen slab of meat given their situation, but that's nothing a musclehead like Yael can't undo with enough effort. Where's his meat mallet....................]
Sure have, and I had good reason.
[But as the days go by, he realizes more and more how important it is to be present for his boo thang. He's animorphing into a real man.]
Anyway... Where's it hurt the most? Your neck like usual?
Yes. I think I've been tensing up more than I should be lately...
[ For good reason.
Fai lets himself sink back into Yael's touch as he closes his eyes again. It'll hurt when Yael gets to the knot on the right side of his neck, but at least he'll feel looser. ]
You know, I put you as my emergency contact before we got stuck in here.
[Ah, yep, here come the super stubborn knots. Yael exterminates them with remorseless efficiency knowing Yuui can handle a fair amount of pain.]
Yeah...? Guess that means I won't die after all.
[Given Yuui's commitments, it's unlikely he'd go missing without someone taking notice and calling in a welfare check, but before that, they'd give Yael a call. There's a nonzero chance they'd check in on him as well, so that's... well.]
...That's a relief.
[He's a cautious optimist, but there's at least some chance they'll come out of this situation alive together.]
[ He hisses, doing his best not to tense up even more as those fingers dig into his muscles. Oof, ouch. ]
I don't really have any actual close contacts in real life, so when we exchanged keys I figured I may as well set you as my emergency contact. You wouldn't be a spouse or next of kin, sure, but I thought it would be something.
[ After all, Yael deserved to know if something happened to him. And now, it may very well save him. ]
[Bear with it, Twinkie. Yael knows for a fact Yuui can handle a firm massage, but fortunately for him, the hardest knots have been worked out. Yael nudges Yuui forward and works his way further down his back.]
...Well, I'm honored. When we get back, [if we get back,] I'll list you down as mine too. I've got no one out here.
[And what "family" he has back home is... a story for another day. Moving off the topic, Yael pats Yuui's back.]
[ He scoots forward with no issue, and although goosebumps form along his back where Yael touches him, he has no problem with actually being touched like this. ]
You don't have "no one", Sheza. You've made friends. Stop thinking of yourself as alone.
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Tracking kisses up and down the pale column of his neck, Yael presses his arousal to Yuui's ass, those vibrations running like a current beneath his skin. His cock twitches heavily, almost desperately, because it's been far too long since they've been intimate.
It's about damn time. Yuui thinks so too, right? Slowly, Yael's fingers begin working that plug loose.]
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But Yael's cock twitches against him and that nervousness comes rushing back and he heaves out a breath, nowhere near as blissful as those sighs. ]
You're eager.
[ He can tell, and it makes him feel guilty for not feeling that same burn of need. Ah, but maybe he can will it up inside of him, maybe he just needs Yael's cock pressing against his entrance and that will solve all of his problems. ]
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...Aren't you? This is the only sport we have in common.
[cock boxing]
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Please... it's not a sport.
[ Though his body is acting like it's one, his heart hammering in his chest in a very bad way. Ah, but maybe he can get through it just for Yael. It's been a while, and his desire is practically radiating off of him in a way that Fai would normally drink right up.
But does he even want Fai like this, knowing that Fai doesn't love him back? The last time Yael topped, it certainly didn't seem that way.
...
He closes his eyes, taking a steadying breath. ]
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...No? Genital jousting doesn't qualify for the Olympics, but it still takes skill and finesse.
[It's clear to Yael that something is off. He isn't going to let the thought slip his mind, instead operating on a hunch and pulling down on Yuui's hips to quickly bury himself fully inside of his body.
Pressed this close, he can feel his heart hammering away. He can feel the cold sweat beading on his skin, and with it, a familiar sense of dread comes to roost. In his heart, he already knows.]
What's wrong?
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I...
[ He can't do this, can he? Not when Yael's cock inside of him fills him with anxiety, activating his nerves in a way that makes him want to bury himself in a hole. His eyes feel painfully wet, and the urge to cover his face is strong. ]
I can't do this. I'm sorry.
[ Fai practically whispers, shame plainly written all over his face. ]
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Nausea climbs into his throat and claws at his gut. I can't do this. Yael feels the blood drain from his face and his legs threaten to give out, but he doesn't allow himself to buckle. He doesn't let emotion permeate his expression. He can't, won't, when Yuui is the one hurting.
Yael slowly withdraws, pulling out while his cock rapidly softens, and sets Yuui down.]
Don't be. I get it.
[He knows why, after all. This is his own damn fault.]
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I mean it, Sheza. I'm sorry.
[ Fai's voice trembles as his fingers dig into his shoulders. ]
I can't even do this. I should be able to. I'm sorry.
[ The one thing I'm good for. ]
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Yael won't let that happen. Seeing the muscles in his legs tense and tremble, Yael exhales a silent sigh and loops an arm around his shoulders, bringing him in for a hug, loose but warm.]
You've got this bad habit of apologizing over nothing. As if you were the one who screwed up.
[Yael softly clicks his tongue.]
...After what I did to you, of course you're uncomfortable. You should've said something sooner.
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I took part in it as much as you did, Sheza. I wanted that just as much as I didn't want it.
[ It was... strange, to want something as much as he wanted it to stop. ]
But I thought I would be alright. I thought I would enjoy being with you more than I'd be thinking about what happened that day.
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[This bonehead has never been treated well in his life. That's the only reason he can say what he's saying without any irony, without cracking up and admitting that he's just pulling his own leg, that he isn't so ill in the head that he'd truly believe any part of what was done to him was welcomed and wanted. For such a smart guy, Yuui sure is a capital D dumbass.
Yael brings them both down to sit, hauling Yuui into his lap.]
Your body is trying to tell you something. You ought to listen to it for once.
[Case in point: Yael tweaks Yuui's shoulder. Yael has spent countless nights massaging his neck, back, and shoulders because Yuui spends so much time nose down in his text books. This man knows how to moisturize, but that's only so he looks good to others. He doesn't do a damn thing to take care of himself.]
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Ah... Rude.
[ But if Yael decides to give him a massage, he won't decline it... ]
I think I need more time. I'll listen to my body, since you insist.
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[It hurts to know Yuui can't trust him right now, that he'll need time to regain that trust, but Yael is at least assured that he'll put his own needs front and center for once.
That said...]
Well, want me to leave you alone? Go ahead, tell me to back off. I won't be offended.
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Ah, but saying that feels like he's laying his heart too bare. ]
...I'd hoped that you would offer to give me a massage.
[ He thinks that this will at least give Yael a semblance of an answer. ]
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Regardless, Yael isn't going to turn his request down. He acquiesces with a nod.]
Alright, alright. Here's my offer: want a massage?
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So, Fai turns around on his lap. ]
I do.
[ He closes his eyes in an attempt to relax. ]
...Thank you for not leaving just now.
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Don't thank me. You didn't want me to leave, so I stayed.
[That's all. But that isn't all, is it? Yael has left plenty of times before regardless of what Yuui wants, but the last thing he wants is to hear Yuui muse about how he's shaped up, improved, what have you. Please, don't embarrass him like that.]
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You've left plenty of times, you know.
[ Which means Yael is getting the last thing he wants to hear. At least Fai has enough mercy to leave it at that. ]
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Sure have, and I had good reason.
[But as the days go by, he realizes more and more how important it is to be present for his boo thang. He's animorphing into a real man.]
Anyway... Where's it hurt the most? Your neck like usual?
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Yes. I think I've been tensing up more than I should be lately...
[ For good reason.
Fai lets himself sink back into Yael's touch as he closes his eyes again. It'll hurt when Yael gets to the knot on the right side of his neck, but at least he'll feel looser. ]
You know, I put you as my emergency contact before we got stuck in here.
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Yeah...? Guess that means I won't die after all.
[Given Yuui's commitments, it's unlikely he'd go missing without someone taking notice and calling in a welfare check, but before that, they'd give Yael a call. There's a nonzero chance they'd check in on him as well, so that's... well.]
...That's a relief.
[He's a cautious optimist, but there's at least some chance they'll come out of this situation alive together.]
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I don't really have any actual close contacts in real life, so when we exchanged keys I figured I may as well set you as my emergency contact. You wouldn't be a spouse or next of kin, sure, but I thought it would be something.
[ After all, Yael deserved to know if something happened to him. And now, it may very well save him. ]
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...Well, I'm honored. When we get back, [if we get back,] I'll list you down as mine too. I've got no one out here.
[And what "family" he has back home is... a story for another day. Moving off the topic, Yael pats Yuui's back.]
How's the pain? Need me to ease up?
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[ He scoots forward with no issue, and although goosebumps form along his back where Yael touches him, he has no problem with actually being touched like this. ]
You don't have "no one", Sheza. You've made friends. Stop thinking of yourself as alone.
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[Name one! One!! Hector totally doesn't count.]
Listen. Don't bother with the pep talks. If I wanted friends, I'd have them. If I wanted a family, I'd have that too. I'm fine, Yuui.
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