Who ⚔ Yael & assorted nerds What ⚔ A dungeon run and other things When ⚔ After the party Where ⚔ Errywhere Content Warnings ⚔ Men with their tits out? Alcohol??? No correlation there surprisingly. nsfw i'm sorry mom
[Yael isn't convinced a therapist would do him much good. Honestly, all sitting down with a shrink would accomplish is sending the poor sap to a therapist of their own.]
But you're pulling my leg if you think you'll convince me I'm some kind of nympho. Get real. Anyway...
[Yael's free hand sifts into his hair, scratching his scalp.]
...You're annoying. [That's the big one. The Main Trait.] You're studying hard, you don't eat enough, and you have a cat. Need me to keep going?
[ Honestly, he thinks Sheza has the higher sex drive of the two of them, but he can also keep up with it so… what does that say about Fai? He doesn’t plan on debating Sheza on that for now, though. Maybe later. ]
Wow, really lovely traits you remember.
[ But he gets the picture for the most part. He hasn’t left despite only remembering Fai’s big trait. ]
[ He visibly brightens, finally letting the wave of shock and sadness that threatened to hit him when Sheza first called him “Fai” again wash over him. With a long sigh, Fai sits down on the edge of the bed, his fingers still holding onto Sheza’s hand. ]
I was afraid you’d forgotten everything. There’s a lot to go over, you know.
[ A half joke. He was mostly afraid that they’d have to start from scratch, that he had lost all that they had built. ]
[Honestly, starting from scratch would probably be a worthwhile endeavor, but Yael's content to call this good enough if Yuui is. Settling beside him on the bed, he flops back and trains his gaze on the ceiling, hand still in Yuui's.]
Sorry for freaking you out earlier. It's just...
[...How could she leave me? No, no. He can't think like that anymore. He can't languish in the past.]
Mm. You know.
[Mmmmbleh. He doesn't feel like talking about it.]
[ He lifts up Sheza’s hand, grazing his lips along the knuckles. He’ll reminds Sheza of all the bits and pieces he’s missing over time, starting off small so Fai doesn’t overwhelm him. ]
You told me about it a while ago. I wanted to know what your relationship was like.
[ Maybe he should offer condolences or say he’s sorry, but they’re empty platitudes and Fai knows Sheza doesn’t want those. ]
It’s hard to let go of a relationship that meant so much to you, especially when you woke up thinking you were next to your fiancée.
[He takes the warmth of those lips with as much grace as he can. His hand tenses, relaxes, and tenses again. Is this really a bridge Yuui wants to cross right now? Stubborn man, but Yael knows in his heart that he fell for this oddball in part because of that stubborn streak. It's times like these where Yael seriously questions his own taste.]
...Right.
[It's embarrassing, thinking back on the moment he realized Yuui was not Aida, how poorly he'd reacted.]
I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been so hostile right off the bat. I didn't mean to upset you.
[ And maybe now Sheza remembers that Fai is as sensitive as he is stubborn—a really dangerous combination. ]
You didn’t leave immediately. I think… your reaction wasn’t as bad as it could have been.
[ Although there’s still clear hurt in his eyes, Fai can at least acknowledge that much. Being asked what he did to Sheza hit a little too close to home, but… he can let that go, maybe. ]
...That's another thing I remember. You're a bad liar.
[Spoken with a laugh, though it's brief. Tentatively, his thumb begins to stroke along the back of Yuui's hand. His body remembers the softness of his skin, how comforting it feels beneath his own.]
It hurt your feelings. You know what you're supposed to do to someone who pisses you off and breaks your heart? Punch them in the face.
[He claps his teeth like he intends to bite Yuui's palm for that little pap, a well-practiced movement, but he doesn't go through with it. The anxiety is mutual. They can't go back to the way they were, not even if Yael's memories return to him.]
You'd be happier if you lied less often, that's all, but be honest for your own sake. What you think about yourself at the end of the day matters more than what anyone else thinks.
[ That little movement pulls out a small smile, and he almost wishes that Sheza went through with it and bit him. Maybe he'd wake up from whatever extended nightmare this is.
Sheza has a point, that much is true, but Fai finds himself shaking his head. ]
[As if preparing to scold a small child, Yael exhales a weary sigh.]
...You shouldn't. Not where you're at.
[Yael's words are vague, though not intentionally so. In his heart, he knows a love of Yuui has taken root. His heart also knows the feeling isn't mutual.]
[ It's clear on Fai's face that he doesn't want to let Sheza go, but he knows that Sheza means it when he says he needs time to himself. There are a lot of things he needs to sort through, especially when it comes to no longer being engaged.
So, reluctantly, Fai gets up and presses a soft kiss to Sheza's cheek. ]
Alright. Go to the spa so you can relax.
[ He takes a step back, a signal that Sheza is allowed to go. ]
[It's tempting, so tempting, to turn and let that kiss land on his lips instead, but Yael doesn't. He needs time and distance before he can let himself kiss Yuui again. Until then, it wouldn't feel right. Any kiss he gives him now will lack the love Yuui so obviously deserves.
Instead, Yael musses up Yuui's hair beneath his palm and buries a kiss in the resulting mess before making for the door.]
You better not mope around in here when I'm gone.
[The knob twists. Yael steps out into the hallway.]
I mean it.
[Closing the door behind him with a soft click, Yael wanders away.]
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You did say I needed therapy. But don’t you also need it?
[ He grins, that little stubborn streak shining through as he does. ]
We’re both a little messed up, just in different ways. [ He pauses. ] And if one of us is a nymphomaniac, it’s you.
[ Which he can explain in due time, of course. But he needs to know something before he says anything else: ]
What do you remember about me, Sheza?
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[Yael isn't convinced a therapist would do him much good. Honestly, all sitting down with a shrink would accomplish is sending the poor sap to a therapist of their own.]
But you're pulling my leg if you think you'll convince me I'm some kind of nympho. Get real. Anyway...
[Yael's free hand sifts into his hair, scratching his scalp.]
...You're annoying. [That's the big one. The Main Trait.] You're studying hard, you don't eat enough, and you have a cat. Need me to keep going?
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Wow, really lovely traits you remember.
[ But he gets the picture for the most part. He hasn’t left despite only remembering Fai’s big trait. ]
Do you remember my name too?
[ This is the most important thing, he thinks. ]
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[Yael hums, going from scratching his head to rubbing his chin, deep in thought. His name, his name, his name...]
...It's not Fai. That's your twin's name.
[Yael glances at him over his shoulder, but only briefly.]
Yuui.
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I was afraid you’d forgotten everything. There’s a lot to go over, you know.
[ A half joke. He was mostly afraid that they’d have to start from scratch, that he had lost all that they had built. ]
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Sorry for freaking you out earlier. It's just...
[...How could she leave me? No, no. He can't think like that anymore. He can't languish in the past.]
Mm. You know.
[Mmmmbleh. He doesn't feel like talking about it.]
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[ He lifts up Sheza’s hand, grazing his lips along the knuckles. He’ll reminds Sheza of all the bits and pieces he’s missing over time, starting off small so Fai doesn’t overwhelm him. ]
You told me about it a while ago. I wanted to know what your relationship was like.
[ Maybe he should offer condolences or say he’s sorry, but they’re empty platitudes and Fai knows Sheza doesn’t want those. ]
It’s hard to let go of a relationship that meant so much to you, especially when you woke up thinking you were next to your fiancée.
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...Right.
[It's embarrassing, thinking back on the moment he realized Yuui was not Aida, how poorly he'd reacted.]
I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been so hostile right off the bat. I didn't mean to upset you.
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…I think I was going to be upset either way.
[ And maybe now Sheza remembers that Fai is as sensitive as he is stubborn—a really dangerous combination. ]
You didn’t leave immediately. I think… your reaction wasn’t as bad as it could have been.
[ Although there’s still clear hurt in his eyes, Fai can at least acknowledge that much. Being asked what he did to Sheza hit a little too close to home, but… he can let that go, maybe. ]
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[Spoken with a laugh, though it's brief. Tentatively, his thumb begins to stroke along the back of Yuui's hand. His body remembers the softness of his skin, how comforting it feels beneath his own.]
It hurt your feelings. You know what you're supposed to do to someone who pisses you off and breaks your heart? Punch them in the face.
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I'm not that bad. You just see through me better than most people do.
[ But he'll reach over and give Yael a little pap on the cheek anyway. ]
It's one reason why I was drawn to you. You told me to stop lying the first time we met, even though I was lying about something minor.
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You'd be happier if you lied less often, that's all, but be honest for your own sake. What you think about yourself at the end of the day matters more than what anyone else thinks.
[...]
Myself included.
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Sheza has a point, that much is true, but Fai finds himself shaking his head. ]
I care a lot about what you think about me.
[ Perhaps more than he should. ]
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[As if preparing to scold a small child, Yael exhales a weary sigh.]
...You shouldn't. Not where you're at.
[Yael's words are vague, though not intentionally so. In his heart, he knows a love of Yuui has taken root. His heart also knows the feeling isn't mutual.]
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...What do you mean?
[ He knows deep down, but... but he has to ask. ]
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[Yael's answer is swift and curt. That Yuui has to ask just proves he doesn't know or need to know.
Releasing his hand, Yael gets to his feet, but he doesn't immediately make for the door.]
...Let me have some time to myself, will you? When I come back, you can tell me all the little things I've forgotten in my old age.
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So, reluctantly, Fai gets up and presses a soft kiss to Sheza's cheek. ]
Alright. Go to the spa so you can relax.
[ He takes a step back, a signal that Sheza is allowed to go. ]
I'll be waiting.
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Instead, Yael musses up Yuui's hair beneath his palm and buries a kiss in the resulting mess before making for the door.]
You better not mope around in here when I'm gone.
[The knob twists. Yael steps out into the hallway.]
I mean it.
[Closing the door behind him with a soft click, Yael wanders away.]