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altimit2023-08-07 06:12 pm
sicklysweet) wrote in altimit2023-08-07 06:12 pm
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Who 🍰 owen & frenemies
What 🍬 area explores, depressing conversations, quests???
When 🍠August
Where 🍫 Lumina Cloth, et cetera
Content Warnings 🥧 Owen, discussions of suicide/suicidial ideation, violence & death, potentially other things that will be updated as needed.
Wildcard me! This will also be where I put open prompts, should I write any unrelated to the event. I might also add more top levels in the body! Hooray! Feel free to hit me on the plotting post, or on discord and plurk, both revelries.
What 🍬 area explores, depressing conversations, quests???
When 🍠August
Where 🍫 Lumina Cloth, et cetera
Content Warnings 🥧 Owen, discussions of suicide/suicidial ideation, violence & death, potentially other things that will be updated as needed.
revelries.
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[He doesn’t think it’s pathetic, but there is something sad about never being able to enjoy peace and quiet. Living life constantly on the edge is exhausting, without any peace and quiet.
It’s not sustainable. That’s what pushes you closer and closer to doing something stupid - but it could also be something you can learn to circumvent. Owen’s not going to make that assumption, though, because he doesn’t know what Anaido deals with every day.
Not yet, but he may never know, either.]
It might be bad for you. It might not be, but we’ll see how it goes. Though, I do have one piece of advice…
[He leans in, smirking.]
If you’re going to kiss me, do it properly.
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[Like the fact that the man who labels himself as Anaido is very sad. A sad man in a sad world, doing sad things like playing a video game in order to find connection.]
[Living on the edge, perhaps. But maybe he's trying to find that silver spider's web to pull him out of hell, too.]
[He cocks his head a little at the word "advice" - but then the man is coming closer. So close, now. He exhales, eyes flitting to the other's mouth, before a smirk of his own graces his lips.]
...I wouldn't want to do it improperly. I'm quite sorry. I have to fix that, then.
[He wouldn't want to disappoint, after all.]
[A little laugh, a little tightening of his grip to keep him close, and he crosses the distance, lips against lips. Not restrained, but not too overboard. A simple kiss, in a virtual world.]
[It feels so real.]
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[Everyone is a little bit sad, a little bit broken. Some more then others, even if it's not always obvious, but sadness isn't something that can't be changed.
Sometimes all it takes is doing something you normally wouldn't, like kiss a stranger in the middle of a PVP arena in an MMO.
Even if Owen isn't expecting Anaido to kiss him again, much less after apologizing for not doing properly. It's sweet, too, in how a kiss is just a kiss and he's not pushing for more.
(Though, if he did, Owen wouldn't say no. It's easier to ignore how empty he feels inside when the men he usually kisses have ulterior motives.)
He pulls back with a laugh, though he doesn't entirely separate himself from Anaido. This is pathetic of him, honestly.]
Yes, like that. That's much better.
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[He almost has the urge to shake him, to hear it again. Do you mean that? Are you just saying that? If you saw all of me, every aspect of me, would you still utter those words?]
[Perhaps Owen is pathetic. Perhaps they're both pathetic for this, because he's reluctant to pull back. A dog had a taste of a bone after years without a morsel. How could he resist?]
Oh, I'm glad. [He beams, his brightness sincere this time.] I can do a few things right, it seems.
[No more kisses at this moment, but he can't help himself - he leans in to nose along the other's neck, snuggling in. He laughs against his skin.]
But maybe you make me do things better. Like a good luck charm.
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Though it’s also entirely possible any red flags would get ignored or cause a just as alarming fascination, so perhaps it’s for the best. Unfortunately.]
At least a few.
[He reiterates with a slight huff, managing not to tense when Anaido gets even closer, but only just. It’s dangerous to let him get so close, it’s dangerous to be touched by his sincerity and to be so curious about just how broken and wrong he is. Learning more about him…
Just means that it will sting even more when Anaido sees all the ugly, detestable pieces of him and grows to hate him. Owen knows that if Anaido is smart, he’ll leave. Nothing about him will endear Anaido into wanting to deal with him. That is one of the universal truths of his life, that Owen will always be left behind, but he can’t find it in himself in this moment to push him away as he usually does.
Maybe it’s selfish to just focus on the moment, but he can worry about Anaido leaving him when it happens.]
I don’t know about that. You were the one who decided to listen to my advicd, so maybe it’s more you finally have someone who’s orders you want to follow?
[Can Anaido feel his pulse? It feels like his heart is racing - but does that come across in VR? He doesn’t want to know, but now he’s worried it’s obvious.]
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[Just a few, huh.]
[The next statement makes him laugh again - as light as bells. It's funny, to feel so heavy and so light at the same time. If only real life was like this, right? If only things could be so simple.]
Maybe. I do like when a man orders me around. [But now he's tilting his head, giving the man a narrowed little glance - pleased as a fox.] I like having my fun, too. I'm a tricky sort. You have to really focus on setting me on the path you want. Catch me if you can?
[He feels drunk.]
I believe you can.
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Well, that sounds like a challenge.
[Chasing someone? Better then waiting for someone to care, maybe, like what Owen's been doing for most of his life. Ever since...
Maybe it means Anaido is different, broken in ways Owen doesn't understand, but maybe he won't leave Owen behind or lock him out and up and leave him all alone. It's just another delusion of the moment, that's all it is, but instead of saying that he'd let Anaido slip away, instead of shooting him down, he just shakes his head.]
I don't like losing, and I don't like being disobeyed. Don't get mad at me when you learn that the hard way.
[He says, like he's not going to panic about all of this later.]
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[Throwing down the gauntlet, here - but he doesn't care either way how this goes. Of course, it may be quite sad if Owen pushes him aside, but he's the type to live in the moment. Whatever he'll take, he'll get. A starving man will be happy with scraps.]
[But it doesn't mean the starving man doesn't want a buffet, ether.]
I won't be mad. I just want to see if you have bite to your bark. If you don't, then I'll be upset, and you don't want that, do you?
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Challenge accepted, then.
[Against his better judgement, unfortunately.]
We'll see if we can handle each other, and whether or not you're up to handling my bite.
[And then what? Owen has no idea. He's giving Anaido about a month before he forgets about him and moves on, or finds someone less abrasive and cagey to flirt with.]
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[He doesn't know what he's getting into, but oh, its so fun while it goes on, isn't it?]
[He leans forward, turning to press a light dusting of a kiss against the man's ear. Oh, this is playing with fire. He likes getting burned.]
Bite me, then.
gazes into the middle distance
If you insist.
[He shifts, cupping Anaido’s face with both his hands. He looks into those dead eyes of his, as if to see if there’s any spark at all, but then he’s leaning in for another kiss. Another proper one.
Then he bites down on Anaido’s bottom lip, a laugh catching in the back of his throat.]
also gazes
[He lets out a little laugh of his own, bubbling over.]
That's more like it.
[And such a gift deserves something in return. His hand tangles into the other's hair as he also bites over the other's lip, tongue tracing over the outline of that bold gesture as he continues.]