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altimit2023-10-29 12:29 pm
gluttoning) wrote in altimit2023-10-29 12:29 pm
10/29 --- Δ Haggard Traveler’s Reprieve?????
Who: ??? & you!
What: Something's starting...
Where: Δ Haggard Traveler’s Reprieve (Twilight Shoreline)
When: Sunday, 10/29
Warnings: Will be added as needed.
( Perhaps intrigued by the mail allegedly sent by CC Corp, perhaps visiting the Shoreline by chance, gating into the Area goes as it always does, until the music stays cut for longer than it should, and the black, liminal transition screen lingers for a little too long. The seconds tick on. They near turn to minutes. You can't struggle, you can't argue— you can only simply be, and it occurs to you that maybe you'll be trapped midway here, conscious, for maybe forever.
And then you hear static. Your vision warps; pixels strain into words, blurred and unstable. You see them combat for your attention; you see— )
( And then you load in. )
( POST NAVIGATION )
( Sign-in Comment (Mandatory) • How to Play • Mechanics
Phase 1 • Round 1 • Round 2 • Round 3 • Round 4 • Round 5 • Round 6
Phase 2 • Round 7 • Round 8 • Round 9 • Round 10 •
Round 11 • Round 12
Epilogue )
What: Something's starting...
Where: Δ Haggard Traveler’s Reprieve (Twilight Shoreline)
When: Sunday, 10/29
Warnings: Will be added as needed.
( Perhaps intrigued by the mail allegedly sent by CC Corp, perhaps visiting the Shoreline by chance, gating into the Area goes as it always does, until the music stays cut for longer than it should, and the black, liminal transition screen lingers for a little too long. The seconds tick on. They near turn to minutes. You can't struggle, you can't argue— you can only simply be, and it occurs to you that maybe you'll be trapped midway here, conscious, for maybe forever.
And then you hear static. Your vision warps; pixels strain into words, blurred and unstable. You see them combat for your attention; you see— )
( And then you load in. )
( POST NAVIGATION )
( Sign-in Comment (Mandatory) • How to Play • Mechanics
Phase 1 • Round 1 • Round 2 • Round 3 • Round 4 • Round 5 • Round 6
Phase 2 • Round 7 • Round 8 • Round 9 • Round 10 •
Round 11 • Round 12
Epilogue )
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You should figure out how. He ( tips his chin up at Deto who's [ Not Here ] ) loves you a lot.
I don't really care about myself, so I'd never really thought about it before, but. I think just liking other people isn't enough. I guess... learning how to care about yourself is a way of loving the people who love you.
( fucked up right )
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...I'll try.
[Even if it's woefully insufficient.]
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You'll figure it out or you'll hurt him. Or hurt him trying to figure it out.
( Reassuring. Nevertheless: )
But I guess that's part of being human.
( Lots of "I guess"es. He's still figuring this out, too. He wasn't and isn't really like Nanashi in energy, but, in concept, as outsiders with little regard for themselves, they're similar.
Unfortunately, the players very much need Nanashi and Hector up, still, even with these annoying—oops, sorry, no longer a boss—extremely helpful healing cores. Unfortunately x2, he's pretty sure Nanashi and Hector are in the business of low self-worth, which is, like, not Great for life expectancy when you need to make a split-second decision in combat. )
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...Is it?
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That's what it seems like. I wasn't really interested at first.
( in. being human? Apparently, yes. )
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[MITHRUN??????????]
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( For some reason... )
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How did he feel about it? Indifferent, at first. He didn't really owe them anything for liking him when he didn't want nor care for it, cruel as that is to say. But it's seeped into him, over time; he didn't realize it at first, and didn't want to, eventually, but... )
... I'm lucky they still do, despite everything. I'm not easy to like.
( He's not even saying that to be mean to himself, it's an objective statement. He's fully aware of what he's like, and fully aware now of the stuff he was too callous to see before.
He doesn't feel guilty about any of it, but he knows most people would've been right to walk out at any point... especially when being Macha made him less than human. )
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A lot of people turned out for you.
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( Moreso, now that he has all his memories back. Last time he had a big alteration of personality following a series of bad choices, after that accident, no one came for him. )
... I remember I used to try hard to get people to love me, back when I was different. ( Before The Accident (TM). ) I just ended up more alone. But when I stopped caring, people started coming for me. I don't really know why.
( He doesn't think he's more pleasant than he was back then; not fake, surely, but otherwise... )
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( The remaining handful is a slightly more involved story, but he doesn't need to split hairs with Nanashi. The point is, yeah. Fragmenties, man... )
... The people here are surprisingly forgiving.
( Is "forgiving" the right word? It doesn't feel perfect, but he's not sure how to better put it. )
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They are.
I think I'd worried about losing that, when the beta ended.
( A small thing for Lily to hook into, then rip his innards out. Macha believed heaven could only exist here. )
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Even if we're in the same country, or the same state... I didn't think there was anything but Fragment binding us.
( It helped that he lost his memories of reality, but. It was a worry he had before Cubia tampered with his head, too. )
It was hard to believe that eventually, these relationships wouldn't taper off.
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