Who ⚔ Yael & assorted nerds What ⚔ A dungeon run and other things When ⚔ After the party Where ⚔ Errywhere Content Warnings ⚔ Men with their tits out? Alcohol??? No correlation there surprisingly. nsfw i'm sorry mom
[Figures there was no point in asking Yuui to drop it. Everything circles back to him in the end... but Yuui makes a good point. If he'd put his foot down with Hector sooner, this complicated mess would've gotten untangled a long time ago. If Yael put his foot down at all to begin with, there'd be no mess.
So Yael half sighs, half groans, as he leans in to read the creases in Yuui's brow like some kind of fortune teller. Is today the day he dies? Reply hazy. Try again.]
It happened quick. I didn't realize how much of a mess I'd made until it was too late to do anything about it.
[Yael leans back and sips from his glass.]
I'm not trying to make excuses. I've fucked up a lot in my life, but never like this.
[ Fai exhales, long and thin, before taking a sip of his drink. He lets the alcohol linger on his tongue for a moment or two, letting Sheza's words sit in the air before he swallows and speaks again. ]
It was never too late to do something about it, Sheza.
[ Because that's what it comes down to, in his opinion. Sheza and Hector could have set boundaries at any time, and they didn't. ]
Set clear boundaries with him, for one. Clear enough that you're both allowed to move on.
[ After all... they deserve to have a friendship with one another, and Hector deserves to find someone that isn't already attached to someone else. He may be bitter, but Fai can recognize that much. ]
[ And that's exactly what Fai doesn't realize, that Hector isn't okay with just a friendship. ]
I can't ask you to cut him off completely. I won't do that to you.
[ Fai would never force that decision onto Sheza, especially when he's well aware that Sheza already has trouble forming connections. To lose yet another person he cares about... Fai can't do that to him.
Setting his glass down, Fai splays his arms out along the bar and lays his head down on the cool counter. ]
I believe you.
[ But that doesn't necessarily take away the pain in his chest either. ]
[wouldn't it be cool and so helpful if they talked about that
Yael leans forward, the bar stool creaking, and sets down his glass.]
It's all or nothing, Yuui. Hector isn't the kind of man who can divorce himself from his feelings.
[Yael reaches over and ruffles Yuui's hair, hand settling on his shoulder.]
I know I've hurt you and damaged your trust. What you need to realize is that Hector can't be satisfied with something in the middle. He'd be better off forgetting me, but he can't.
[This is the part where he'd take a long drag of his cigarette if he were a smoker. Instead, Yael's fingers turn to the soft comfort of Yuui's cheek.]
I don't know what he's going to do with himself. I'd regret it for the rest of my life if he killed himself.
[ "wouldn't it be cool and so helpful if they talked about that" is just the story of their relationship tbh
Despite the frown on his face and the dull ache in his chest, he leans toward every bit of physical contact Sheza gives him like a flower desperate for sunlight. ]
...And you were afraid of setting those boundaries, because you know he doesn't want that middle ground and you didn't want to let go of it all the way like that.
[ Fai thinks he understands it, just a little bit. He looks up at Sheza, his eyes searching his face for hints of emotions that he might not be putting into words right now. ]
[Yuui really does have that delicate little fwower energy... Yael's clumsy fingers chase the warmth of his skin and cling to it like a lifeline.
His words ring with cynicism like always, but his touch remains soft. His gaze, however, is hard, boring holes into the liquor bottles on the shelf.]
Wouldn't it be nice if the easy answers were always the right ones?
[Yael won't admit to his bleeding heart, but he isn't denying it either.]
I want to earn back your trust. That shouldn't have to mean throwing out the overgrown baby with the bath water, but you're the only one who knows what you need from me. So tell me.
[ The answer leaves his mouth quickly, even as he gazes up at Sheza with uncertainty in his eyes. ]
I need to feel confident you wouldn’t leave me to chase after your own righteous anger, or that you’re not thinking of someone else while you’re with me. I’ve done a lot of worrying about both.
[ He knows both of those things done exactly have some secret quota to be met that will finally let him trust Sheza again, but those are the goals he has in mind. ]
I need… to know that you think this can work.
[ That they can grow together in a way that keeps them from bringing out the worst in one another. He already feels some of that “worst” bubbling up inside of his chest, the desire to proclaim that he wants Sheza to be his and his alone in every sense of the word sitting heavily in his throat. But he doesn’t, though his gaze shifts anyway, piercing through the haze of alcohol in a way that makes his blue eyes look incredibly sharp. ]
[...Good on you, Yuui. It couldn't have been easy to set the strongest of his feelings aside to be completely candid. No... Yael knows it was a struggle.
Yael's hand lifts from Yuui's hair, but it doesn't stay gone for long. He needs both his hands to grab the underside of his stool and scoot, scoot, scoot, until they're sat so closely together that he can smell the booze on Yuui's breath. Throwing an arm over those bony shoulders, Yael nestles in close, cheek to cheek.]
I'm proud of you, Yuui. I mean that.
[Spoken in whispered tones, Yael turns his head to leave his lips pressed to Yuui's cheek.]
I'll never leave your side again, Yuui. Not by choice. I wouldn't bother making you promises I planned on breaking. You mean... so much more to me than you realize.
[ It's a little ridiculous how much Sheza has to scoot like that and it almost makes him huff out a laugh, but then he's close—so close—and even the smell of the strong alcohol he's been drinking wafting off of him isn't too bad.
Without realizing it, he tilts his head so that his cheek is easier for Sheza to press his lips to. ]
[Mmmmmmmgh. He's too damn drunk for this conversation, and Yael grumbles with his lips molded to Yuui's cheek. Mwah, mwah, mwah. Lazily kissing him, Yael's hand sneaks over to Yuui's thigh and squeezes it.]
Didn't I just do that? Geez, you're needy.
[He kisses a sloppy trail up to Yuui's ear.]
I had a dream we got married just the other day. [?!] It was the happiest day of my life. I dreamt it was yours too.
[ The continued kisses, the meaningful squeeze to his thigh... it's all temptation. He knows exactly what Sheza is doing and he refuses to fall for it. Well, right at this moment, that is. ]
Really? Ever dreamed out getting married to anyone else?
[ Hmph!! Though if he spreads his legs an inch wider, he doesn't acknowledge it. ]
[Is he sure he won't fall for it...? Yael has never considered himself to be much of a gentleman, but at least he isn't the type of guy to, uh, do what he's doing right now.
Cocking a brow, he slips his hand between Yuui's thighs and squeezes his groin, but oh, that's not nearly direct enough. Yael then takes Yuui's hand and places it between his own muscular legs, encouraging his fingers to curl around his erection. Shameless.]
Nah. You're the only girl for me.
[Slip of the tongue? Hard to say.]
But seriously... who else would there be? I only have eyes for you and you know that. That's why I want you to bend over and stick that pretty ass out for me.
That's certainly forward, isn't it? As if Sheza running his hand along his inner thigh wasn't already more than enough to send certain signals. Fai is a little surprised, gasping softly when Sheza is bold enough to side his hand all the way up and between his legs and then even moreso to place Fai's hand exactly where he wants it. But despite his surprise, he obliges and gives Sheza Jr. a little squeeze anyway as he smiles, sweet and almost saccharine. ]
I'm impressed that you're already hard. Shouldn't you have a little more shame, considering I haven't even really touched you yet?
[ He stands, giving Sheza a firm stroke over his pants before guiding him upright. For just a moment Fai looks at the bar and considers it, and it seems like he might really and stick his pretty ass out, but he shoves Sheza from behind and pins him to it with his legs instead, using a hand against his back to force him to bend over. ]
In your state, you won't last even a second inside of me. Why should I bend over?
[Buddy, you should be praising him for being able to get rock hard when he's several drinks in. It takes a man of impressive testicular fortitude to get it up under such grueling conditions—]
...Huh?
[What's that he hears in Yuui's voice...? A touch of defiance? Yuui's tone is at odds with his sweet little smile, the gentle way he swaddles Sheza Jr. in his palm... but then Yael's being guided upright and bent over the bar, and everything starts making sense. Oh. Oh.
Yael's silent for a moment, cheek pressed into cool, polished wood, while he contemplates every choice he's made in life that's led up to this point. Then, like a dam breaking, he's laughing.]
Heh... Heheh!
[He's gone insane, hasn't he? Yeah. Clearly. Lifting his cheek from the bar, he grins back at Yuui over his shoulder, rubbing his ass into his lover's groin.]
And you think you'll last longer inside of me? Give me a damn break.
[ He doesn't react to the way Sheza presses back against him, his muscular (and shockingly plump) ass a temptation he refuses to give into just yet. Does Sheza really think Fai will give him what he wants that easily? Sheza needs to earn back his trust and the right to sink into Fai's ass. Or, well, that's the logic of his alcohol riddled brain at the moment.
And since Sheza has done neither and instead gone for the option to act like a typical man, Fai will flip the script and make him beg.
For what? That depends, doesn't it? ]
Of course I will. I've lasted longer than you plenty of times.
[ He can't claim every time, as much as he'd like to, and before Sheza can get out another laugh or cocky comment, Fai reaches forward and grabs a fistful of his hair and shoves his head back down on to the counter. Fai presses down, making sure that the cold chill of the bar seeps into Sheza's cheek.
There's a wicked edge to his smile now, a glint in his eyes that hints at his urge to make a mess of Sheza. To humiliate him, to dominate him, to claim him. ]
Got anything else you want to say?
fai serving something a lot more sinister than cunt
[Mm. Yuui isn't happy with him, but he's turned on, isn't he? Enough to smush his face into the bar. Enough to take on that decidedly domineering tone. Yael finds it sexy, of course. He may be drunk, but he knows what Yuui's aim is here.
Yael, good boy that he is, lets himself mold to the bar. With one cheek pressed to the bar, his words come out a little muffled.]
I get the feeling you're looking for a specific answer.
[Yael shakes his ass, and not particularly enticingly. Shaky shaky...]
You don't scare me. Why don't you stop acting like a tough guy and fuck me already?
[Yael's hands snake around to the front of his slacks, casually pulling his own zipper down...]
[ It's a little enticing, honestly, but Fai pays no attention to it whatsoever. ]
Tough guy? You haven't seen me act like one yet.
[ His gaze drifts to Sheza's hands, watching as he works his pants open. He'll wait for the perfect opportunity to bat his hand away. There's an art to blueballing, after all. ]
Look at how desperate you are, taking your dick out in a public space like this.
[ A place they've already slept together in before, but that doesn't matter right now. His guild wasn't even open at that point. ]
[It's a bit deranged, tugging his dick out of his pants when anyone could easily walk into the @ Home and catch them, but what does Yael care? He's one too many glasses deep to spare any thought to how he'll explain himself if they get caught, much less how shameful it is to jerk himself off while he waits for Yuui to get this show on the road.
Yael isn't expecting to get far, groaning through the first languid tug of his cock. Yuui's probably going to stop him, so Yael doesn't invest too heavily on playing with himself. Honestly... were he sober, he's certain he'd be embarrassed.]
Yeah, look how desperate I am. If you loved me, you'd jerk me off.
[ He gives Sheza a flat, unimpressed look. As if a cheap manipulation tactic like that would work on him. ]
...
[ Fai steps back, watching as Sheza strokes himself. The sight itself is exciting, but he doesn't let it show on his face. More than anything, he focuses on looking bored. ]
You could use some improvement in your technique. Clearly you aren't that desperate. I'm disappointed.
[Really making him work for it, huh? Fine with Yael. Nothing easy's worth fighting for, so Yael pushes back against the hand on his back to turn around, lift himself onto the bar, and spread his legs. How's this for a sight?]
No? Let me give you a show.
[If Yuui isn't going to restrict him, then he's going to touch himself at his leisure, thighs widening to give him a good view of his cock. Yael's fingers work over his length at a leisurely pace, beads of precum spilling down his shaft in an indecent display he makes no attempt to hide.
Grinning, Yael reaches out and takes one of Yuui's hands, attempting to guide it to his cock.]
[ This is much, much better. Enough so that Fai takes a few steps closer, settling right between Sheza's legs so he can get a good view. His gaze travels over Sheza's face, then his body, before finally settling on his cock. He watches one particular bead of precome travel down his shaft before a small smile settles on his lips.
Fai all but slaps Sheza's hand away, his eyes remaining trained on his cock. ]
You're doing the work here, not me. Finish yourself off like the obedient boy you are.
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But if Sheza wasn't in the picture... hm. ]
I think we'd be close. [ Fai pauses. ] He should've known better and you should have too.
[ That's the root of it, anyway. His words are quick an honest, at least, even though Sheza might wish they weren't. ]
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So Yael half sighs, half groans, as he leans in to read the creases in Yuui's brow like some kind of fortune teller. Is today the day he dies? Reply hazy. Try again.]
It happened quick. I didn't realize how much of a mess I'd made until it was too late to do anything about it.
[Yael leans back and sips from his glass.]
I'm not trying to make excuses. I've fucked up a lot in my life, but never like this.
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It was never too late to do something about it, Sheza.
[ Because that's what it comes down to, in his opinion. Sheza and Hector could have set boundaries at any time, and they didn't. ]
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Yael leans back with closed eyes.]
What do you expect me to do about it now?
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[ After all... they deserve to have a friendship with one another, and Hector deserves to find someone that isn't already attached to someone else. He may be bitter, but Fai can recognize that much. ]
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[Here's what Yuui doesn't realize: Hector doesn't want a friendship from him. That man is allergic to moving on.]
It's all or nothing with that guy. Unless you're asking me to cut him off completely, he isn't going to forget the way he feels.
[And even then, those lingering scars will never fully fade.
Taking a long sip from his glass, Yael nearly overshoots and misses when he kicks his feet up onto the bar.]
He knows I've chosen to be with you and only you. If you can't believe me, that's another problem entirely.
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I can't ask you to cut him off completely. I won't do that to you.
[ Fai would never force that decision onto Sheza, especially when he's well aware that Sheza already has trouble forming connections. To lose yet another person he cares about... Fai can't do that to him.
Setting his glass down, Fai splays his arms out along the bar and lays his head down on the cool counter. ]
I believe you.
[ But that doesn't necessarily take away the pain in his chest either. ]
cw suicide ment
Yael leans forward, the bar stool creaking, and sets down his glass.]
It's all or nothing, Yuui. Hector isn't the kind of man who can divorce himself from his feelings.
[Yael reaches over and ruffles Yuui's hair, hand settling on his shoulder.]
I know I've hurt you and damaged your trust. What you need to realize is that Hector can't be satisfied with something in the middle. He'd be better off forgetting me, but he can't.
[This is the part where he'd take a long drag of his cigarette if he were a smoker. Instead, Yael's fingers turn to the soft comfort of Yuui's cheek.]
I don't know what he's going to do with himself. I'd regret it for the rest of my life if he killed himself.
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Despite the frown on his face and the dull ache in his chest, he leans toward every bit of physical contact Sheza gives him like a flower desperate for sunlight. ]
...And you were afraid of setting those boundaries, because you know he doesn't want that middle ground and you didn't want to let go of it all the way like that.
[ Fai thinks he understands it, just a little bit. He looks up at Sheza, his eyes searching his face for hints of emotions that he might not be putting into words right now. ]
What he chooses to do isn't your fault.
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His words ring with cynicism like always, but his touch remains soft. His gaze, however, is hard, boring holes into the liquor bottles on the shelf.]
Wouldn't it be nice if the easy answers were always the right ones?
[Yael won't admit to his bleeding heart, but he isn't denying it either.]
I want to earn back your trust. That shouldn't have to mean throwing out the overgrown baby with the bath water, but you're the only one who knows what you need from me. So tell me.
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[ The answer leaves his mouth quickly, even as he gazes up at Sheza with uncertainty in his eyes. ]
I need to feel confident you wouldn’t leave me to chase after your own righteous anger, or that you’re not thinking of someone else while you’re with me. I’ve done a lot of worrying about both.
[ He knows both of those things done exactly have some secret quota to be met that will finally let him trust Sheza again, but those are the goals he has in mind. ]
I need… to know that you think this can work.
[ That they can grow together in a way that keeps them from bringing out the worst in one another. He already feels some of that “worst” bubbling up inside of his chest, the desire to proclaim that he wants Sheza to be his and his alone in every sense of the word sitting heavily in his throat. But he doesn’t, though his gaze shifts anyway, piercing through the haze of alcohol in a way that makes his blue eyes look incredibly sharp. ]
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Yael's hand lifts from Yuui's hair, but it doesn't stay gone for long. He needs both his hands to grab the underside of his stool and scoot, scoot, scoot, until they're sat so closely together that he can smell the booze on Yuui's breath. Throwing an arm over those bony shoulders, Yael nestles in close, cheek to cheek.]
I'm proud of you, Yuui. I mean that.
[Spoken in whispered tones, Yael turns his head to leave his lips pressed to Yuui's cheek.]
I'll never leave your side again, Yuui. Not by choice. I wouldn't bother making you promises I planned on breaking. You mean... so much more to me than you realize.
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Without realizing it, he tilts his head so that his cheek is easier for Sheza to press his lips to. ]
...Then tell me so that I do realize it.
[ It's a soft, almost shy, demand. ]
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Didn't I just do that? Geez, you're needy.
[He kisses a sloppy trail up to Yuui's ear.]
I had a dream we got married just the other day. [?!] It was the happiest day of my life. I dreamt it was yours too.
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Really? Ever dreamed out getting married to anyone else?
[ Hmph!! Though if he spreads his legs an inch wider, he doesn't acknowledge it. ]
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Cocking a brow, he slips his hand between Yuui's thighs and squeezes his groin, but oh, that's not nearly direct enough. Yael then takes Yuui's hand and places it between his own muscular legs, encouraging his fingers to curl around his erection. Shameless.]
Nah. You're the only girl for me.
[Slip of the tongue? Hard to say.]
But seriously... who else would there be? I only have eyes for you and you know that. That's why I want you to bend over and stick that pretty ass out for me.
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That's certainly forward, isn't it? As if Sheza running his hand along his inner thigh wasn't already more than enough to send certain signals. Fai is a little surprised, gasping softly when Sheza is bold enough to side his hand all the way up and between his legs and then even moreso to place Fai's hand exactly where he wants it. But despite his surprise, he obliges and gives Sheza Jr. a little squeeze anyway as he smiles, sweet and almost saccharine. ]
I'm impressed that you're already hard. Shouldn't you have a little more shame, considering I haven't even really touched you yet?
[ He stands, giving Sheza a firm stroke over his pants before guiding him upright. For just a moment Fai looks at the bar and considers it, and it seems like he might really and stick his pretty ass out, but he shoves Sheza from behind and pins him to it with his legs instead, using a hand against his back to force him to bend over. ]
In your state, you won't last even a second inside of me. Why should I bend over?
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...Huh?
[What's that he hears in Yuui's voice...? A touch of defiance? Yuui's tone is at odds with his sweet little smile, the gentle way he swaddles Sheza Jr. in his palm... but then Yael's being guided upright and bent over the bar, and everything starts making sense. Oh. Oh.
Yael's silent for a moment, cheek pressed into cool, polished wood, while he contemplates every choice he's made in life that's led up to this point. Then, like a dam breaking, he's laughing.]
Heh... Heheh!
[He's gone insane, hasn't he? Yeah. Clearly. Lifting his cheek from the bar, he grins back at Yuui over his shoulder, rubbing his ass into his lover's groin.]
And you think you'll last longer inside of me? Give me a damn break.
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And since Sheza has done neither and instead gone for the option to act like a typical man, Fai will flip the script and make him beg.
For what? That depends, doesn't it? ]
Of course I will. I've lasted longer than you plenty of times.
[ He can't claim every time, as much as he'd like to, and before Sheza can get out another laugh or cocky comment, Fai reaches forward and grabs a fistful of his hair and shoves his head back down on to the counter. Fai presses down, making sure that the cold chill of the bar seeps into Sheza's cheek.
There's a wicked edge to his smile now, a glint in his eyes that hints at his urge to make a mess of Sheza. To humiliate him, to dominate him, to claim him. ]
Got anything else you want to say?
fai serving something a lot more sinister than cunt
Yael, good boy that he is, lets himself mold to the bar. With one cheek pressed to the bar, his words come out a little muffled.]
I get the feeling you're looking for a specific answer.
[Yael shakes his ass, and not particularly enticingly. Shaky shaky...]
You don't scare me. Why don't you stop acting like a tough guy and fuck me already?
[Yael's hands snake around to the front of his slacks, casually pulling his own zipper down...]
always
Tough guy? You haven't seen me act like one yet.
[ His gaze drifts to Sheza's hands, watching as he works his pants open. He'll wait for the perfect opportunity to bat his hand away. There's an art to blueballing, after all. ]
Look at how desperate you are, taking your dick out in a public space like this.
[ A place they've already slept together in before, but that doesn't matter right now. His guild wasn't even open at that point. ]
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Yael isn't expecting to get far, groaning through the first languid tug of his cock. Yuui's probably going to stop him, so Yael doesn't invest too heavily on playing with himself. Honestly... were he sober, he's certain he'd be embarrassed.]
Yeah, look how desperate I am. If you loved me, you'd jerk me off.
[ :) ]
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...
[ Fai steps back, watching as Sheza strokes himself. The sight itself is exciting, but he doesn't let it show on his face. More than anything, he focuses on looking bored. ]
You could use some improvement in your technique. Clearly you aren't that desperate. I'm disappointed.
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No? Let me give you a show.
[If Yuui isn't going to restrict him, then he's going to touch himself at his leisure, thighs widening to give him a good view of his cock. Yael's fingers work over his length at a leisurely pace, beads of precum spilling down his shaft in an indecent display he makes no attempt to hide.
Grinning, Yael reaches out and takes one of Yuui's hands, attempting to guide it to his cock.]
But it's more fun with audience participation.
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Fai all but slaps Sheza's hand away, his eyes remaining trained on his cock. ]
You're doing the work here, not me. Finish yourself off like the obedient boy you are.
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