Who ⚔ Yael & assorted nerds What ⚔ A dungeon run and other things When ⚔ After the party Where ⚔ Errywhere Content Warnings ⚔ Men with their tits out? Alcohol??? No correlation there surprisingly. nsfw i'm sorry mom
[ The ache dulls into something more pleasurable with that gentle rhythm, and a sigh floats past his lips.
He smiles softly, holding Sheza closer to him so that he can better share in his heat. ]
Of course I will.
[ It's an easy promise to make, no hint of hesitation in his words. But even as he makes the promise... hm. He feels like this isn't the first time Sheza has asked him to stay, though he has no real memory of it. Fai can easily recall his hesitation, however, his fear of making a promise he couldn't keep leaving him locked in a difficult decision.
This, however, isn't hard to promise at all. Perhaps a lot has changed since then, he isn't sure. ]
[A promise from Yuui is one Yael will never question. Unlike himself, Yuui makes promises knowing he can keep them. Unlike himself, love doesn't scare Yuui quite so badly.
It's only with Yuui can Yael can be comfortably vulnerable. Fishing for his hands, Yael twines their fingers together, licks and bites melting away into kisses and gentle words.]
...You say that too easily. I worry about you.
[Yael's tone is playfully chiding, but there's a grain of truth in there. He'll always worry about Yuui. Someone has to, don't they?]
[ The pained tilt to Fai's gasps and moans shifts to something softer and more relaxed. That burning need to have Sheza close doesn't have to involve pain, as raw and pleasurable as that pain can feel. This is a different kind of rawness, though, as baring one's heart fully is just as intense as bites that draw blood. Squeezing Sheza's hand in his, he tilts his chin to the side to give him better access to the expanse of his neck. ]
Is that a bad thing?
[ His legs squeeze around Sheza's hips, though not hard enough to cause him any real pain. They've moved past that moment. ]
[Yael takes him up on the offer, kissing a clean trail right up to Yuui's ear and nibbling gently on the lobe. How quickly they swing from one extreme to the next. How thankful Yael is to have a partner who can handle his temperament in stride.]
Mm. Fine.
[Yael's hand coasts over every bare patch of skin, touching Yuui with reverence. His hips pump steadily, the leadup to climax less a burning inferno and much more like a slowly kindled flame.]
...We're gonna have to call in a nurse after this. I'll leave the explanations to you.
[Aka the excuses and carefully crafted lies. This is a lot to own up to.]
[ There isn't much bare skin for Sheza to touch, at least not on his chest, but the small patches that his fingers graze against are warm and as soft as ever. He sighs, allowing his eyes to slip closed as pleasure starts to build low in his belly, though the gentle rhythm Sheza has switched to is more like a pleasant simmer than the burning hot from just a few minutes ago. It's good either way, he thinks, though he slightly prefers this gentler side to Sheza. While both the angry and sentimental parts to him are honest pieces of him in their own right, he thinks that what he sees right in this very moment is Sheza with everything else stripped away.
It's why he only laughs as he squeezes Sheza's hand. ]
Fine. I'll use my charm on the nurses and say we tried to cuddle and reopened some wounds.
[Every nerve in his body hums, dancing like feet touched to a flame, but he can endure the building arousal knowing nothing feels better than letting go with Yuui. Realizing that... scares him, just a little. Knowing how close the other man has nestled close to his heart scares Yael, but at the same time, he can think of little more meaningful than them.
Without Yuui, he is simply Yael, and Yael was a miserable and deeply unhappy man back then... but then, no, they've known each other since childhood, haven't they?
Haven't they?
Yael's brow furrows, but the thought is swept aside by Yuui's poor excuse for an explanation. Yael laughs, breathy with arousal, and smirks.]
[ That's close enough to the truth. It's not like any excuse he gives will matter, when the evidence will be clear about what they've been up to. Better to ask for forgiveness than for permission anyway.
Fai runs his fingers through Sheza's hair before his hand lands on his cheek. Even Sheza's face is warm—and a little sweaty, too.
His cock brushes up against Fai's prostate in the perfect way, drawing out a soft moan. That little distraction doesn't mean he misses the way Sheza's brows furrow, however. ]
[The nurses may question why a string bean like Yuui would accept a challenge from a literal bear, but that's none of their business.
Yael, hearing Yuui's protracted sigh, adjusts the angle of his hips to stroke that prostate with every thrust. Mm, but nothing gets pasts his lover's eyes, eh? Yael shakes his head, dismissive.]
Nothing. Just reminiscing. [...] How old were we when we met?
[But the facts don't quite match up. If they've known each other since they were children, then why does he recall being filled with such profound sadness before meeting Yuui? In childhood, sorrow is fleeting. What Yael felt ran bone deep.
Bashing his head against the wall won't produce answers. Instead of fighting it, Yael returns his full attention to fucking Yuui, groaning as the arousal begins to peak and push him over the edge.]
We'll talk about it more— later. Yuui...
[...Are you close? Yael is rarely fussed about such things, but this time, he wants them to finish together.]
[ Nothing stands up to any real scrutiny. It's terrifying, knowing that everything he's accepted as fact isn't actually the truth. They had promised to face those things together, though, and he knows that they can use their feelings for one another to ground themselves.
They're lucky to have that. ]
Me too. [ He turns his head, pressing a kiss to Sheza's cheek. ] Touch me.
[ It's surprising to be warned for once, to hear rather than feel that Sheza is close. The idea of finishing together is a pleasant one, though, especially after nearly losing one another.
So, he'll let Sheza touch him and guide them both to completion. ]
[No matter what the truth may be, some facts can't be challenged: he loves Yuui, wholly and truly. Their past may be a fabrication, but it won't change this indelible truth.
Guilt steadily eats at him like acid soaking his bones, but Yael can ignore it so long as Yuui keeps him distracted. Guilt tells him this happiness isn't his to savor, but Yuui assures him that he does. Yuui protects him in ways Yael has never been able to protect himself. This is love, Yael knows beyond a shadow of a doubt.
He moves instinctually to give Yuui what he wants, pumping at his cock in time with his own thrusts to gradually build them both up to the very edge and push them over it together. Yael is mindful of their mess, cupping his hand over the tip of Yuui's cock to keep his semen from pooling on any open wounds. He's not the kind of freak who'll lick fresh spend off his palm, but he is the kind of freak who'll wipe it all off on Yuui's robe immediately afterwards. Wild.]
...Ah. I don't want to pull out.
[Or even move, for that matter, but Yael flops down beside Yuui instead of on top of him to avoid aggravating his wounds. Small sacrifices, truly.]
[ Finishing together isn't something that Fai cares about, at least not usually. This time, however... it feels different. Maybe it's the adrenaline, or maybe it's something else, but for a moment the difference between their false memories and their real memories doesn't exist. All that matters in this moment is that they're both here, together.
It's a good thing Sheza thinks to cup his hand over Fai's cock, because he certainly isn't thinking about it as he comes hard, his body tensing and his head spinning.
Though as he pants, he notices the way Sheza wipes his hand off on his robe. ]
Gross.
[ Going limp, he smacks one of his hands on Sheza's stomach. ]
[That smack earns a laugh, and sitting up with a muted oof, Yael...
...Well, he can't get up and fetch a wash cloth with one leg, can he? Good thing he remembered his missing appendage before trying to get up and walk.
Rather than worry Yuui, Yael flops back down beside him and tries to savor the afterglow. Reality quickly filters back in, but if he were able-bodied, Yuui wouldn't have wanted him to run off right after sex anyway, would he?]
Hey. Have you come up with a better excuse for the nurse yet?
[If only. Yael might get some entertainment out of watching them have their way with Yuui before cutting them all to ribbons, but anyway. Yael looks over at Yuui, grinning at his disheveled form and lifting a hand to wipe his brow.]
I'm the only monster here. Pull yourself together and I'll call the nurse in. Leave the excuses to me.
[He'll take the blame for this. It's technically all his fault anyway.]
[Lay in the cold semen all you want, baby boy. It's no skin off Yael's sack. For his part, he winds an arm around Yuui's shoulder and keeps him arm against his side.]
[Yael chuckles, pulling Yuui's robe closed so he has one more barrier against the aircon. No getting sick, you hear?]
What would that make you? A bear fucker? We'll have to agree to disagree on that one, but if I didn't have my demons, I wouldn't have bitten you bloody.
[Seeing all the injuries on Yuui's body without the veil of arousal clouding his judgment brings all the guilty feelings bubbling to the surface. No amount of gentle touches can make up for the way he's made Yuui's condition worse, so Yael is careful where he leaves his hands on his body, his touch much, much lighter.]
[ Fai, for his part, doesn't seem worried. He can feel the way Sheza's touch is lighter, almost worried, as he lays his hands on his body.
All it does is make Fai scoot closer to him. ]
That's what we have nurses for. If I thought you were actually going to hurt me, I would have put a stop to it.
[ His tone grows more serious as he speaks, his gaze settling on Sheza's face. There is no trace of worry in his eyes, or in the determined way his mouth sets. He'd stop Sheza from hurting him. ]
[Leave it to Yuui to pick up on something so subtle. Couldn't be Yael, but he appreciates his partner making up for his weaknesses and taking cues from his body language and the nervous energy he's sure is ebbing off him in waves.
It's difficult, tearing his eyes off Yuui's wounds, but Yael forces his eyes closed. If he doesn't, he'll just keep worrying, losing himself to his guilt.]
I believe you. That doesn't change the fact that you put up with too much.
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He smiles softly, holding Sheza closer to him so that he can better share in his heat. ]
Of course I will.
[ It's an easy promise to make, no hint of hesitation in his words. But even as he makes the promise... hm. He feels like this isn't the first time Sheza has asked him to stay, though he has no real memory of it. Fai can easily recall his hesitation, however, his fear of making a promise he couldn't keep leaving him locked in a difficult decision.
This, however, isn't hard to promise at all. Perhaps a lot has changed since then, he isn't sure. ]
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It's only with Yuui can Yael can be comfortably vulnerable. Fishing for his hands, Yael twines their fingers together, licks and bites melting away into kisses and gentle words.]
...You say that too easily. I worry about you.
[Yael's tone is playfully chiding, but there's a grain of truth in there. He'll always worry about Yuui. Someone has to, don't they?]
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Is that a bad thing?
[ His legs squeeze around Sheza's hips, though not hard enough to cause him any real pain. They've moved past that moment. ]
Accept it without worry for once.
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Mm. Fine.
[Yael's hand coasts over every bare patch of skin, touching Yuui with reverence. His hips pump steadily, the leadup to climax less a burning inferno and much more like a slowly kindled flame.]
...We're gonna have to call in a nurse after this. I'll leave the explanations to you.
[Aka the excuses and carefully crafted lies. This is a lot to own up to.]
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It's why he only laughs as he squeezes Sheza's hand. ]
Fine. I'll use my charm on the nurses and say we tried to cuddle and reopened some wounds.
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Without Yuui, he is simply Yael, and Yael was a miserable and deeply unhappy man back then... but then, no, they've known each other since childhood, haven't they?
Haven't they?
Yael's brow furrows, but the thought is swept aside by Yuui's poor excuse for an explanation. Yael laughs, breathy with arousal, and smirks.]
They won't believe that for a second. Try harder.
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[ That's close enough to the truth. It's not like any excuse he gives will matter, when the evidence will be clear about what they've been up to. Better to ask for forgiveness than for permission anyway.
Fai runs his fingers through Sheza's hair before his hand lands on his cheek. Even Sheza's face is warm—and a little sweaty, too.
His cock brushes up against Fai's prostate in the perfect way, drawing out a soft moan. That little distraction doesn't mean he misses the way Sheza's brows furrow, however. ]
Something wrong?
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[The nurses may question why a string bean like Yuui would accept a challenge from a literal bear, but that's none of their business.
Yael, hearing Yuui's protracted sigh, adjusts the angle of his hips to stroke that prostate with every thrust. Mm, but nothing gets pasts his lover's eyes, eh? Yael shakes his head, dismissive.]
Nothing. Just reminiscing. [...] How old were we when we met?
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Was it at a party? That's his immediate thought, but... hm. ]
We were... kids. I don't remember how old we were.
[ He can't remember. This is something that he would remember.
But knowing that their memories have been tampered with in some way makes it make sense, at least on some level. ]
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[But the facts don't quite match up. If they've known each other since they were children, then why does he recall being filled with such profound sadness before meeting Yuui? In childhood, sorrow is fleeting. What Yael felt ran bone deep.
Bashing his head against the wall won't produce answers. Instead of fighting it, Yael returns his full attention to fucking Yuui, groaning as the arousal begins to peak and push him over the edge.]
We'll talk about it more— later. Yuui...
[...Are you close? Yael is rarely fussed about such things, but this time, he wants them to finish together.]
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They're lucky to have that. ]
Me too. [ He turns his head, pressing a kiss to Sheza's cheek. ] Touch me.
[ It's surprising to be warned for once, to hear rather than feel that Sheza is close. The idea of finishing together is a pleasant one, though, especially after nearly losing one another.
So, he'll let Sheza touch him and guide them both to completion. ]
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Guilt steadily eats at him like acid soaking his bones, but Yael can ignore it so long as Yuui keeps him distracted. Guilt tells him this happiness isn't his to savor, but Yuui assures him that he does. Yuui protects him in ways Yael has never been able to protect himself. This is love, Yael knows beyond a shadow of a doubt.
He moves instinctually to give Yuui what he wants, pumping at his cock in time with his own thrusts to gradually build them both up to the very edge and push them over it together. Yael is mindful of their mess, cupping his hand over the tip of Yuui's cock to keep his semen from pooling on any open wounds. He's not the kind of freak who'll lick fresh spend off his palm, but he is the kind of freak who'll wipe it all off on Yuui's robe immediately afterwards. Wild.]
...Ah. I don't want to pull out.
[Or even move, for that matter, but Yael flops down beside Yuui instead of on top of him to avoid aggravating his wounds. Small sacrifices, truly.]
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It's a good thing Sheza thinks to cup his hand over Fai's cock, because he certainly isn't thinking about it as he comes hard, his body tensing and his head spinning.
Though as he pants, he notices the way Sheza wipes his hand off on his robe. ]
Gross.
[ Going limp, he smacks one of his hands on Sheza's stomach. ]
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...Well, he can't get up and fetch a wash cloth with one leg, can he? Good thing he remembered his missing appendage before trying to get up and walk.
Rather than worry Yuui, Yael flops back down beside him and tries to savor the afterglow. Reality quickly filters back in, but if he were able-bodied, Yuui wouldn't have wanted him to run off right after sex anyway, would he?]
Hey. Have you come up with a better excuse for the nurse yet?
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Fai lolls his head to the side to look at Sheza, taking his sweet time forming coherent thoughts. ]
Hmm. Monsters invaded our room?
[ Jizz monsters? ]
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[If only. Yael might get some entertainment out of watching them have their way with Yuui before cutting them all to ribbons, but anyway. Yael looks over at Yuui, grinning at his disheveled form and lifting a hand to wipe his brow.]
I'm the only monster here. Pull yourself together and I'll call the nurse in. Leave the excuses to me.
[He'll take the blame for this. It's technically all his fault anyway.]
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Fai leans into that touch, closing his eyes for a moment as a pout settles on his lips. ]
Give me more than thirty seconds, please.
[ Let him sit here and enjoy this for a second more. Though he pinches Sheza in the side for that little comment. ]
You're not a monster.
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[Lay in the cold semen all you want, baby boy. It's no skin off Yael's sack. For his part, he winds an arm around Yuui's shoulder and keeps him arm against his side.]
Aren't I though? Calm down.
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Not really. Unless you want me to compare you to one... do you want to be called a big, scary bear?
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What would that make you? A bear fucker? We'll have to agree to disagree on that one, but if I didn't have my demons, I wouldn't have bitten you bloody.
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Does it look like I care? [ After all, he even encouraged it. ] Besides, I did the same to you too.
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You should care. What about your injuries?
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[ Fai, for his part, doesn't seem worried. He can feel the way Sheza's touch is lighter, almost worried, as he lays his hands on his body.
All it does is make Fai scoot closer to him. ]
That's what we have nurses for. If I thought you were actually going to hurt me, I would have put a stop to it.
[ His tone grows more serious as he speaks, his gaze settling on Sheza's face. There is no trace of worry in his eyes, or in the determined way his mouth sets. He'd stop Sheza from hurting him. ]
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It's difficult, tearing his eyes off Yuui's wounds, but Yael forces his eyes closed. If he doesn't, he'll just keep worrying, losing himself to his guilt.]
I believe you. That doesn't change the fact that you put up with too much.
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Says the guy who got his leg cut off in my stead because I was being careless.
[ Leave it to Sheza to feel guilt when Fai is the one who should feel the brunt of it. ]
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