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[sicklysweet]

Who: Owen & people witnessing his no good very bad forced openness.
What: Sometimes dungeon run effects aren't super fun?
When: Early October.
Warnings: gazes... likely mentions of child abuse, neglect, death & violence/physical assault, suicidal ideation, mental illness, ptsd, possibly also gender identity, transphobia and homophobia?? specific cws will be in the threads but this is not going to be a fun time for anyone. yay!

If anyone wants a thread with Owen while under the effect still, I am a) still working on some more starters but b) feel free to ask for one! Or if you want one in the fallout. There won't be anything tied to the event in this post, however, so wait for me over there.

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[sicklysweet]

[Ah, that does explain a lot. Not that Owen has much familiarity with the Midwest, but he's lived in America for long enough to know what that means for someone like Fai.]

Maybe Hector was right about this game and there really is some conspiracy to make it as queer as possible.

[Which... it's easier to deflect like that than to actually stop and thing about the feeling of someone... accepting him, with no questions, who might not mind if things changed...]

[fluorite]

It's possible... and yet I ended up with the sole straight man who signed up.

[ And he doesn't want to think about the implications about this beta being filled with queer people, so... ]

Which means that a lot of us understand one another on some level, I think.

[sicklysweet]

[Owen gives him a look, as I sit here and wonder if Owen even knows about Yael and Fai. I don’t… think he does…]

Must not be that straight if he tolerates you.

[Whoever this mysterious man might be…]

But I wonder about that. There are people using this game to change their circumstances, sure, but not everyone really gets it. People can still be cruel if you’re not exactly who they want you to be.l even if they should understand more than anyone else.

[fluorite]

[ most of the game does not know about them, shockingly ]

...Who's been cruel about that?

[ He wants a list, thanks. ]

[sicklysweet]

You know, that could be a very long list.

[Owen's an old hag, after all.]

But before you work yourself up into a tizzy, it's not so much anyone who's in this beta with us. Don't worry.

[He's talking more... general shitheadedness. Everyone in Fragment just assumes he's cis, probably, but that's fine.]

cw homophobia

[fluorite]

You caught me~ I was about to.

[ He would have hunted someone down. Sure, he and Owen might not be friends, but there's a certain level of solidarity there anyway. ]

I have a long list too. Random guys will follow me on the street sometimes, or the parents of students I tutor get really concerned about my personal life.

[ Hopefully Owen feels at least somewhat less alone, knowing this. ]

cw transphobia… amb this thread is so much

[sicklysweet]

Don’t parents have anything better to do?

[He huffs, rolling his eyes. He gets it, though. People always get so nosy about things that don’t matter to them out of misplaced concern.

Like being gay means you don’t have morals.]

…Before I moved to America, I was a soloist at the Northern Ballet Company. I was only there a few years, but everyone knew I was the best in the company. Would never be principal, though, no matter how many years I had spent there, because what role would I dance in a pas de deux?

[It was easier to ignore who - what - he was or wasn’t when it was just him. He’s sure Fai’s had to deal with people trying to put him in a box plenty.]

:tippytap:

[fluorite]

Ah... to have your opportunities squandered like that. I'm sure you don't need me to tell you that you deserved better, but...

[ He's saying it anyway, simply because he wants to. ]

[sicklysweet]

Maybe I did.

[Ehhh...]

At least I have - had, at this rate - a job where things like that don't matter. Who knows if I'll be able to return to it if we get out of here, but it was nice while it lasted.

[fluorite]

...At least it was.

[ That's all anyone can really ask for. And he won't fight Owen on whether or not he deserved better—Fai is the last person who should tell someone to think better of themselves. ]

I don't know what will happen with my schooling. Maybe I've been suspended for missing class too many times.

[sicklysweet]

Maybe if we’re obscenely lucky, people will be understanding and everything will all work out. A happy ending.

[If only life was actually that good.]

[fluorite]

Right? I wonder if anyone would even know what we've been through, or if CC Corp would try to cover it all up after the fact.

[ Because he fully expects that to happen. ]

[sicklysweet]

There’s absolutely no way they won’t try to cover this up - but it might be possible to expose them anyways. That might be our best bet.

[Owen wants to see them burn, tbh.]

[fluorite]

To tell you the truth, I'm hoping one of our wealthier friends takes them on in a legal battle.

[ That would be the easiest solution, he thinks. Using money to expose their crimes seems like the only way. ]

[sicklysweet]

Well, it’d be the one time the rich are actually useful.

[…]

It’s kind of strange how many people in this beta are wealthy, honestly.

[fluorite]

[ He holds back a laugh. Owen is absolutely right, though. ]

It is. But if you think about it, wealthy people get access to the next big thing earlier than everyone else. Maybe that's the reason.

[sicklysweet]

[fuckin’ rich people.]

You’re probably right. Just another disgusting abuse of privilege…

[smh]

Well. Maybe they’ll decide to be helpful and supportive afterwards to all of us less fortunate. If not, we’ll just have to crucify them.

[eat the rich…]

[fluorite]

[ Now that? That gets a laugh out of him. ]

You have a violent way of speaking, don't you?

[ Not like Fai really seems to mind. He's pretty unbothered, actually. ]