[ Joonghyuk takes a deep breath before recalling the events at the mirror house. He went in there with Hector and saw the other man's past. Combined with what Brambles has just said—up until now he wasn't sure whether he saw some kind of an elaborate illusion or something else. Now, however, Joonghyuk realizes that it must have been real. ]
I saw something similar, I think. Someone's memories... [ It's probably better to keep Hector's name out of this considering the nature of the memory. ] Who's that Mia you mentioned, anyway?
We haven't known each other for that long, but... let's write down everything we remember. We have to preserve as many memories as possible until we're stuck here.
[ He starts writing on one side of the journal, describing Brambles' father's appearance to the best of his ability as well as his character traits. Gentle, loving with a glint of sadness in his eyes. Joonghyuk doesn't omit Brambles' mother, even though all he knows is that she passed away during childbirth. ]
[ In turn, he writes about Mia. In fact - he writes about Joonghyuk's entire trip to England. How they went to Weatherspoons and ate baked potatoes, how he showed Mia and Joonghyuk how he creates flower preparations in the workshop, their many nights in Daisy Trails. But the biggest description is of Mia because Brambles really does cherish that little girl and he finds it heartbreaking that Joonghyuk can't remember her. This must be how it feels regarding his own lost memories of his father. ]
[ His eyes scan the passages of handwritten notes. Every next word fills him with uneasiness and guilt—how could he forget? Even the trip to England is something he remembered differently. No one accompanied him during the flight, in the hotel, or during his visits to the bookshop. ]
This is...
[ His fingers are curled in fists as he bites his bottom lip. ]
[ He's not sure if that's the word Punisher intended to use here, but it's the first that pops into his mind. ]
Why would this happen to us? For what purpose? There's something so disturbing and so criminal about it ...
[ Brambles grips his partner's hand. ]
But we can hold ourselves accountable. As long as we have each other ... neither of us will forget who we really are ... and no matter what happens, I promise you won't ever lose me.
[ Losing himself happened without noticing has already happened but he remained blissfully unaware. Losing Brambles, however... no, that's out of the question. ]
I will remind you of who you are every single day, I promise.
[ Joonghyuk follows his words with a kiss on Brambles' lips. ]
[ His voice is stern and his tone is firm. That confession surely made Joonghyuk's heart skip a beat, but it also made it sting. ]
I won't let you love myself more than what you are or whatever you've ever been or will be. [ A pause. ] You have to leave some of this love for yourself.
[ Joonghyuk presses a light kiss against his cheek after hearing that bold declaration and smirks this time. ]
In a mood for marriage now? [ He chuckles. ] Let me propose to you once we're back.
[ He muffles out a soft noise when Joonghyuk hugs him tightly. ]
I-If you're sure ... [ So much for not putting himself down. He's just an average, non-standout guy. Or at least that's how he's always seen himself. ]
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[ Joonghyuk takes a deep breath before recalling the events at the mirror house. He went in there with Hector and saw the other man's past. Combined with what Brambles has just said—up until now he wasn't sure whether he saw some kind of an elaborate illusion or something else. Now, however, Joonghyuk realizes that it must have been real. ]
I saw something similar, I think. Someone's memories... [ It's probably better to keep Hector's name out of this considering the nature of the memory. ] Who's that Mia you mentioned, anyway?
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... Mia. S-She's-- she's your little sister. You took her to England with you when you visited me.
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[ Joonghyuk says it calmly—Brambles isn't doing well, so he doesn't want to add to it by being visibly nervous. ]
Did we... really forget?
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I feel like I don't know what's real any more.
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We need to do something. We can't lose any more memories.
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Did you have something in mind...?
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[ He regrets not being more nosy now. ]
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[ It's a great one, even. And fortunately they're surrounded by books. ]
Here ... [ He grabs an empty journal and two pens. ] No time better than the present, is there?
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[ He starts writing on one side of the journal, describing Brambles' father's appearance to the best of his ability as well as his character traits. Gentle, loving with a glint of sadness in his eyes. Joonghyuk doesn't omit Brambles' mother, even though all he knows is that she passed away during childbirth. ]
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Alright, I'm done ... shall we read them?
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[ His eyes scan the passages of handwritten notes. Every next word fills him with uneasiness and guilt—how could he forget? Even the trip to England is something he remembered differently. No one accompanied him during the flight, in the hotel, or during his visits to the bookshop. ]
This is...
[ His fingers are curled in fists as he bites his bottom lip. ]
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[ He's not sure if that's the word Punisher intended to use here, but it's the first that pops into his mind. ]
Why would this happen to us? For what purpose? There's something so disturbing and so criminal about it ...
[ Brambles grips his partner's hand. ]
But we can hold ourselves accountable. As long as we have each other ... neither of us will forget who we really are ... and no matter what happens, I promise you won't ever lose me.
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[ Losing himself happened without noticing has already happened but he remained blissfully unaware. Losing Brambles, however... no, that's out of the question. ]
I will remind you of who you are every single day, I promise.
[ Joonghyuk follows his words with a kiss on Brambles' lips. ]
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I love you more than everything I am ... more than everything I've ever been, and everything I will be.
[ His grip tightens. ]
Nothing will change that. When we leave this place, I want to be with you forever. I'll commit myself to you. Joonghyuk ...
[ He takes his hands. ] I want to marry you.
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[ His voice is stern and his tone is firm. That confession surely made Joonghyuk's heart skip a beat, but it also made it sting. ]
I won't let you love myself more than what you are or whatever you've ever been or will be. [ A pause. ] You have to leave some of this love for yourself.
[ Joonghyuk presses a light kiss against his cheek after hearing that bold declaration and smirks this time. ]
In a mood for marriage now? [ He chuckles. ] Let me propose to you once we're back.
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[ He whines with an obvious playful note, bumping his head against Joonghyuk's chest with a nuzzle. ]
I just don't want to ever be apart from you.
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[ With his large arms wrapped around Brambles lithe frame. ]
You won't be, I promise.
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Okay ... no putting myself down.
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You're... too amazing to put yourself down.
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I-If you're sure ... [ So much for not putting himself down. He's just an average, non-standout guy. Or at least that's how he's always seen himself. ]
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[ Is biting his neck a good way to show Brambles that he's sure? It's hard to tell, but Joonghyuk does it anyway. ]
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Haha - hey! [ And yet, he laughs. ]
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I'm sure. Absolutely sure. I just wish you didn't have to go through all of this.
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[ He knows what Joonghyuk means, but the words just tumble out of him. ]
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[ Says the man who doesn't have the faintest idea how his own parents look like. But this isn't about him. ]
I'm sure he's taking good care of you.
[ Joonghyuk doesn't explain further what he means but if they're here, who knows what's going on with their real bodies. ]
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