August Catch All

[insinning]

Who • Vogel (Emil Sinclair) and YOU
What • Catch all for August - any dungeon runs, misc. stuff happens here. I'll toss up open TL from now and then that don't fit with event posts.
When •All Throughout August
Where • Mac Anu and Lumina Cloth.
Content Warnings • none, will add if any pop up later

Comments

[tablescraps]

... You want to be free.

( From those feelings. From this pain. From this agony. Mithrun emphasizes this in the subtle intonation of his voice: vengeance is for you. It's not about saving people. It's not about doing good. There is no need to make an argument about whether killing a killer improves the world, in any way.

Sinclair wants to do this to make himself feel better. If it does any good after, it's only by chance. It's coincidental bonus. Murder is not worth the energy of philosophy. )

... I do, too.

( He's not being pursued in the same manner Kromer fixates on Sinclair. If anything, Mithrun's been forgotten - scraps on the dinner plate, the meal long done. And he doesn't have the will to live. And he doesn't have the will to die. This is all he's going to be, for the rest of his life.

Killing the professor won't fix anything. But it's all he has left in him to want. If he won't pursue it, surely there is nothing else. )

Don't forget how that feels. We can make plans. We can start somewhere. I'll send you my number later. But...

( A beat. He's not so good at this. He's task-oriented, not feelingsy. )

... talk to me, when you need to. I'll make sure you get your chance.

( To kill her. No matter what. )

[insinning]

...yes.

[That's the real reason he chose Vogel. His family had called him their little Vogel. Demian had likened him to a baby bird preparing to take flight. But all Sinclair wanted right now was freedom. If he can kill her, that woman wont haunt him anymore. She wont be able to drag him down with her.

He wants freedom badly enough to kill for it. He can't pretend it's anything good. Vengeance is what it is. But once she's gone...

Then, he can work out what he really wants.

He studies Mithrun a little more and almost asks - what will you do when you've taken your revenge?

But he doesn't. He'll just have to make sure he stays alive, he thinks, so he can make sure...something happens. Something better than whatever hell they've been trapped in. He squeezes Mithrun's hand and tugs him along]

Okay.

[Soft, but without the wavering:]

Thank you.

[And then he pulls Mithrun to the exit, looking for the light to guide them out]

...let's go. We should...look at the rest of the carnival.