September and secret nsfw october shenanigans

[insinning]

Who: Emil Sinclair (Vogel) and anyone/everyone
When: All over September
What: Catch all, exploration, overflow + dungeon runs; lots of feelings and grieving and murderous thoughts.
Warnings: Nsfw in 25/9 thread just to be safe

 

"Over all the hilltops
Is quiet now,
In all the treetops
Hearest thou
Hardly a breath;
the birds are asleep in the trees:
Wait, soon like these
Thou too shalt rest."

Comments

[tinged]

Yes.

[ hani breathes out the word, gazing at the avatar. yes, reckless. yes, relentless. strange and beautiful and they love him for it. ]

When we find him, you’ll just have to scold him - and then teach me how to do the same.

[ abruptly they let go of his hand and hug him around the shoulders instead. ]

So you stay. [ tightening their hold as if just realizing now that by coming into contact with the creature mithrun encountered, vogel’s avatar might suffer the same fate. ] Stay and be okay.

I’m sorry it hurt. [ again: ] I’ll catch you next time. I’ll catch him, too.

[insinning]

I'm sure I have a lot of things to say. I'm pretty mad at him too after all.

[ Sinclair might be the worst person for this, considering how wildly reckless he has been for the last week. But fear has always driven him to different stages, and he hugs Hani in turn, resting his chin on Hani's head]

Thank you, Hani. I know...I believe in you.

[tinged]

What things?

[ they’ll listen while holding him, chanting stay and be okay in their heart like a blessing and a curse. ]

[insinning]

That he needs to check what he eats before he eats it. Log off at night and sleep properly. Let other people check in on him.

[ He tightens his hold on Hani a little. That living is so much nicer than it seems, once you let people in]

[tinged]

Oh. [ a pleased, surprised note. ] Those are warm words, like a hug. Are you sure that’s scolding?

[insinning]

Mm. Scolding is always done with love. Otherwise it's just yelling.

[That's how his family did it anyway]

[tinged]

[ now that he mentions it… the only person who ever lectures hani is ganymede. so that was also love. oh. ]

Then… we will scold him a lot, a lot. And never stop because we’ll never stop loving him.

[insinning]

[Sinclair nods, smiling]

Exactly. Until he understands it.

[tinged]

I’ll never stop loving you either, Vogel-kun. Please understand that, too.

[ they press a chaste kiss on his cheek. ]

[insinning]

[Oh.

Sinclair nods, cheeks heating a little as he buries his face against Hani's fluffy hair and holds them close. It's different here, in this world. But it's warm]

Mm. Hani, you can use my real name too when you want.

[tinged]

[ oh, that’s… they hesitate. ]

Only if you want that. Names are… very important. Are you sure?

[insinning]

...yeah. In front of all the people you love, then, it's fine.

[They've already met offline after all. And he's been using Hani's name this entire time. He wonders if Hani would have looked up his name, his history. It doesn't carry the same heavy weight that it used to]

[tinged]

[ slowly, they try to explain: ]

I… still haven’t decided if I’m “Hani.” Though more and more, I do feel like Hani is becoming who I am. But… do you mind waiting until I know? I want to trust you with my name, too, but I don’t have one yet.

[insinning]

[No name...? Sinclair tilts his head. But he thinks he understands. He nods against Hani's hair.]

I'll wait for as long as you need me to. But you can still use my name even if you don't have yours yet.

[tinged]

[ they think they know it, has heard oriade say it in conversation when passing by the two of them. carefully, like a question, like something precious: ]

…Emil? Emil-kun.

[insinning]

Yes?

[ Sinclair smiles, soft, lifting his head to check. It's different hearing his name from people. It feels a bit real]

[tinged]

[ they take hold of his face and stare at him for a long, long moment. ]

I’m… going to say your name a lot!

[insinning]

[He goes a little pink but smiles]

That would make me happy.

[tinged]

[ yeah? alright… for the first time in a while, hani smiles happily. ]

[insinning]

[Ah...

Sinclair can't help but draw Hani into another hug then.]