[ How is he supposed to put what he still struggles with into words? He doesn't think it's something he wants to dump all over, even for a family member. Or, at this time, for anyone. And he'd rather pretend he hardly struggles at all. It's easier then.
But...he closes his eyes for a moment, thinking. ]
The events seem so distant in the past. But, when I think about how they happened at all, it feels as if I'm swimming upstream. That I'm pushing futilely against the current. It's like there is no other choice but to, and I know that's the case.
[ He pulls back a little and shakes his head. ]
It's like that for many people, however. And I already know that I can't expect other people to accept my baggage. The world won't welcome anything less than perfection. All these things, all of what I experienced...this is the end result. But, I understood that, at that moment. As I do now.
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[ How is he supposed to put what he still struggles with into words? He doesn't think it's something he wants to dump all over, even for a family member. Or, at this time, for anyone. And he'd rather pretend he hardly struggles at all. It's easier then.
But...he closes his eyes for a moment, thinking. ]
The events seem so distant in the past. But, when I think about how they happened at all, it feels as if I'm swimming upstream. That I'm pushing futilely against the current. It's like there is no other choice but to, and I know that's the case.
[ He pulls back a little and shakes his head. ]
It's like that for many people, however. And I already know that I can't expect other people to accept my baggage. The world won't welcome anything less than perfection. All these things, all of what I experienced...this is the end result. But, I understood that, at that moment. As I do now.