( You don't know that. He wonders if that's true. He'd not said it yet - why add the weight of his his memories to Barrett's own? - but he did understand, somewhat, the situation with Lily. Though Mithrun would argue himself more responsible for the death he caused, he suspects, having felt that guilt-first hand, Barrett might argue himself the same, if not more.
You don't know that. He wonders if Barrett feels that way toward himself, or if it's a luxury he can only extend to Mithrun. Do as I say, not as I do.
It's Barrett's anger coming into view that halts those thoughts, at least for the moment. He had wondered if Barrett would still be angry for him, but some part of him doubted that he would be. Barrett - after all - is rather normal. Mithrun's tragedies are strange. He had thought that at some point he might cross a line somewhere, with how peculiar his life sort of is.
He's angry about the professor. He always is. But Barrett's anger, like Tylor's sympathy, preoccupies him from it, even if only somewhat. )
... I suspected it at the time, but... I've started thinking about it again recently, ( thanks, Sinclair, ) and I think that it was. The setup was suspicious. It was...
( ... not something he should tell Barrett. Probably not something he should tell Tylor, either, and he wonders about Sinclair. Maybe Hani would allow it, but he's never so sure how to predict them when it comes to these serious things. Oria, maybe, he could tell it to, but Oria had probably extrapolated estimations already. He was smart, and had the pieces there.
He shakes his head, dismissing his speculation. )
... He visited me in the hospital to antagonize me. It's what got me out of bed, in the end.
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You don't know that. He wonders if Barrett feels that way toward himself, or if it's a luxury he can only extend to Mithrun. Do as I say, not as I do.
It's Barrett's anger coming into view that halts those thoughts, at least for the moment. He had wondered if Barrett would still be angry for him, but some part of him doubted that he would be. Barrett - after all - is rather normal. Mithrun's tragedies are strange. He had thought that at some point he might cross a line somewhere, with how peculiar his life sort of is.
He's angry about the professor. He always is. But Barrett's anger, like Tylor's sympathy, preoccupies him from it, even if only somewhat. )
... I suspected it at the time, but... I've started thinking about it again recently, ( thanks, Sinclair, ) and I think that it was. The setup was suspicious. It was...
( ... not something he should tell Barrett. Probably not something he should tell Tylor, either, and he wonders about Sinclair. Maybe Hani would allow it, but he's never so sure how to predict them when it comes to these serious things. Oria, maybe, he could tell it to, but Oria had probably extrapolated estimations already. He was smart, and had the pieces there.
He shakes his head, dismissing his speculation. )
... He visited me in the hospital to antagonize me. It's what got me out of bed, in the end.