[Yeah, being laughed at would have been annoying but it would have been easier to deal with than actual feelings.]
In- In some ways, yes, really. It's not like it was the first time I've ever been any sort of intimate with anyone, but going... the whole way...
[He trails off, feeling so embarrassed he just wants to implode. He should have quit while he was ahead, and he doesn't want to know how red his face is right now.
He's a grown man. He wants to throttle himself, especially with the way it feels like butterflies in his stomach when Fandaniel rests his hand over his, but at the same time...
It's nice, someone caring about him even if it's over things that feel quite silly and unnecessary.]
I didn't see a reason to. It's not like it had to be anything special, right?
to save yourself from the cringe
In- In some ways, yes, really. It's not like it was the first time I've ever been any sort of intimate with anyone, but going... the whole way...
[He trails off, feeling so embarrassed he just wants to implode. He should have quit while he was ahead, and he doesn't want to know how red his face is right now.
He's a grown man. He wants to throttle himself, especially with the way it feels like butterflies in his stomach when Fandaniel rests his hand over his, but at the same time...
It's nice, someone caring about him even if it's over things that feel quite silly and unnecessary.]
I didn't see a reason to. It's not like it had to be anything special, right?
[He says, knowing it's wrong.]