Even if miserable—

[ He finally smashes the last stop sign with his staff and goes over to Fandaniel. ]

—they're my experiences. They make me who I am. Whether I love or hate myself is irrelevant. It's who "Hien" is and I wouldn't want it forcibly changed for the "sake of a better personality".

[ He grabs Fandaniel by the collar. ]

So don't call it an "improvement". It's "deterioration".