( He says it with such certainty, one might think it the anchor of his identity - and it is, in some important way. Which makes his unhappy, half-muttered follow-up a little pressing: )
... At least, I didn't. It feels more vague now.
( Which is weird and frustrating and opens the door to a lot of unknowns - both in the labyrinth of wanting, and in loss of purpose, and in acceptance of, potentially, a lifetime of empty. Nothing about learning to want again is appealing, at all; it's a second curse foisted upon his first. )
But... I guess that means I don't want to refuse it.
( Not wanting can work both ways, in safe ambiguity. )
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( He says it with such certainty, one might think it the anchor of his identity - and it is, in some important way. Which makes his unhappy, half-muttered follow-up a little pressing: )
... At least, I didn't. It feels more vague now.
( Which is weird and frustrating and opens the door to a lot of unknowns - both in the labyrinth of wanting, and in loss of purpose, and in acceptance of, potentially, a lifetime of empty. Nothing about learning to want again is appealing, at all; it's a second curse foisted upon his first. )
But... I guess that means I don't want to refuse it.
( Not wanting can work both ways, in safe ambiguity. )